Month: July 2021

Searching for…..something

My therapist is always telling me to “stop chasing the feeling”. It pisses me off just a little, not gonna lie, and I really have no idea what she means. But it stuck. It sunk in. She’s right, that is what I do. And more often than not, it gets me into trouble. I’m always …

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Sometimes things just suck, and there’s nothing you can do.

As much as I wish I could successfully ignore things, as much as I wish I could just…wish the pain away, sometimes you just can’t. Sometimes shit just sucks and there’s really not much anyone can do about it. That’s where I’m at now. Right now in my life, shit just plain old sucks. And …

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He assaulted me again, and tonight I am not unclear.

I thought it would be okay. It thought it wouldn’t happen again. But it did, and it happened worse. He touched me, he kissed me, he assaulted me. He put his hands on me. Under my clothes…inside me. These are not unclear circumstances, and I am not okay. If I was unclear before, if I …

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When “self care” isn’t really self care

I often (okay, basically always) allow myself just the bare minimum of basic human needs necessary for survival. I don’t know about you, but for me in my life, I put myself last. Being a mom, and also having extremely low self worth as it is, it’s so incredibly easy to just forget about myself …

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