Sometimes, you just need to take a minute to feel all of your feelings. And that was me last night. Somewhere abound 11:30 last night, I just broke. I felt as alone as I actually am. And I allowed myself to feel it. Instead of texting my best friend, being upset with her because all […]
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If there’s one thing that’s absolutely true in life, it’s that grief is not one size fits all. How one person feels, or outwardly handles grief may be completely different than you, or not what you’d expect…and that’s fine. It’s one of the those things that’s just so individualized and so personal, and you can’t
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Yesterday was one of those days where everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. It was, in every sense of the word, a bad day. It just continued to compound on itself. Here’s kind of how it went down. When we woke up, my 5 year old had a nose bleed that lasted for
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Last night was therapy. The last one for a few weeks, because she’s going on a (well deserved) vacation. Arguably, during the worst time of year (for me), but it is what it is. My birth son’s birthday is officially less than a month away. And I am just…all up in my feels about it.
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She’s having a hard time. She’s feeling alone. Unsupported in her feelings of grief, left to deal with the hardest things alone, like there’s no one safe to talk to. No one interested in being there. She doesn’t want to do this anymore. Her coping skills… the ones that were formed from a straight up
Today is March 1st. It’s been March 1st all day now. Actually, we’re less than 2 hours from March 2nd. For the past week and a half, every single time I’ve looked at my phone, it hasn’t been to check the time. It’s been to check the date. As if every moment I checked was
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As per usual, the chaos continues here in our household, but we keep on moving! Last night, our day didn’t end until 9:30 pm. Between the kids, the goats, only having one car…it was a completely nonstop day. From 5am to 9pm. The exhaustion was REAL. All 3 kids are some level of sick. My
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My head isn’t a fun place to be in this morning. It’s dark, it’s scary, it’s fragile… Last night my husband and I had therapy together with both of of therapists. So, it was all 4 of us together. We’ve been talking about doing this for a while, and I’m glad it happened. It was
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Not often, or, actually, probably never, do I start blog posts out with a teaser. But ooooh boy, today is the start of some BIG changes for us. It was sudden, simultaneously discussed for years and impulsive, possibly stupid, but very exciting. I’m officially share about it on Tuesday. But…yeah. I’m beyond excited. And also
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If there’s one true thing I can say this morning, it’s that I’m having a hard time right now. I feel like my world is made up of shards of glass. And every step I take, no matter which direction I go, I’m at risk of getting hurt. Yesterday I had an hours long panic
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