Did you know that the maximum volume of a 2023 Kia Carnival is only 45? And did you know, that in the throws of pretty extreme emotional distress, 45 is not nearly loud enough? Now, I’ve had some tough drives home from therapy. Drives when the music just HAS to be louder than the thoughts …
Sometimes, life gets rough. And it gets you down. And it can be incredibly hard to keep going and keep fighting when it seems like everything that happens, ends poorly. That’s how it’s felt for me lately. Everything is hard. Everything I do is wrong. These things just keep happening. Truly horrible things. My newly …
Finding the wins, even when they’re hard to find. Read More »
You know those nights that you can just…..predict where they’re going to go? Somewhere around 5pm today, that happened. I knew exactly where this night was going to go, and I asked my husband to help prevent that. Earlier in the day, he got frustrated with me. Me, already being sensitive, thought “oh great, he’s …
Guys, I have to say it. I am pretty damn impressed with myself with how accurately I predicted therapy would go with both my mom and my dad. When my dad came a few weeks ago, it was rough and brutal and just so non productive because all he did was tell me everything horrible …
Today was a bad day. Straight up, point blank. A bad day. It did not go the way I hoped it would, in fact, this entire week has not gone the way I thought it would. My husband and I got into an argument again, mostly because of communication (and his extreme lack there of), …
When you don’t handle conflict the same way, anxiety, and some self hatred. Read More »
Whew. Here’s the update post we’ve all been waiting for! My husband is officially home. He flew back in late Saturday night, and yesterday was the first day he was really home. We didn’t tell the kids he was coming back (because I didn’t even believe it myself), so they were really surprised and happy …
I guess I’m feeling particularly lonely tonight, so I thought I’d share my most random, adhd, late night thoughts with you all. (Because I know you all care so much, right?) – After 9pm, my entire life just becomes one big ama! (Ask me anything). Seriously. All walls drop, and I just get very comfortable …
Random, late night thoughts. (AKA getting to know me?) Read More »
Love languages. How you feel love. If you’ve read the book or the articles, you know what I’m talking about. There are 5 different love languages: words of affirmation, acts of service, receiving gifts, quality time, and physical touch. My love language has definitely changed over the years, and even depending on who I’m with. …
Can I keep writing late at night about my truest and most honest and vulnerable feelings? Is that okay with you? It feels a little wrong, it feels a little dirty, but yet…it feels almost necessary. It’s beginning to feel like survival. Tonight is a night. The absolute worst kind of night. I feel so …
My mental health is currently….well, it’s concerningly bad. Lately, it seems that the majority of my nights are spent thinking of, wishing of death. Life has become too hard, too consuming. I no longer see an option of peace within my days, so I’m looking for calmness in other options. I don’t see death as …