Lately, I have been feeling……..a lot.It’s like I’m feeling everything. All the time. All at once. Constantly. So I find myself playing my oh-so-favorite game I like to call “Why do I feel like shit today?!?”Is it because I’m pregnant?Is it because I’m newly sober, and body still hates the shit out of me?Could it …
Earlier this week my (almost) 5 year old said something really meaningful to me. It was nearing bedtime, by far the most stressful part of the day for me. Neither him nor my (almost) 3 year old were listening particularly well, and I was definitely starting to get frustrated with them. My son recognized that …
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Does this happen to anyone else? I could be sitting there, attempting to drown out the noise from the universe around me…trying to convince myself that I’m fine. That everything is fine. But then randomly, my face betrays me and starts leaking. (Damn allergies.) I’m just in the middle of watching a show, drinking my …
It’s just past 7pm. My husband got home from work an hour ago, and he is already in bed trying to sleep. It happens often. He’ll get a migraine and just be dead to the world sleeping until it goes away. I get it. It sucks for him. But it’s also pretty miserable for me. …
I guess the title states it all for this one. Is it actually possible to heal, to grow and possibly move on to a certain extent, if you’re unwilling or unable to actually deal with and face whatever it is? I find myself in that position quite a bit. Things will hurt, and they’ll suck, …
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Lately, more often than not, I’m feeling very disconnected from myself. Like my voice isn’t really my own, or very authentic. Or like if I’m writing and I’m trying to connect the words with what I’m actually feeling, I just don’t think it’s lining up. It’s weird and frustrating and awkward, and it makes it …
Tonight is an absolute shit show, where I’m sure I’ve made mistakes. All I want to do is give up. All I want to do is listen to the demons and the voices in my head telling my my life isn’t worth it. That all I cause is pain and burden and problems. That voice …
Sometimes I don’t know how to stop the sadness. It feels too big, too consuming. It almost feels cyclical. There are times of the day where I seem to always feel worse. In the morning, after my husband leaves for work and I’m left with facing the day alone. After I put the kids to …
Another night spent welcoming the morning. An empty glass begging to be refilled. No thought consumes my mind more than the anxiety of an empty glass. He begs to go to bed. Not in words, but in actions. This divide is causing issues I don’t know how to solve. “I’m used to it”, he says. …
Pain is pain. We can acknowledge its existence or we can deny it. Either choice won’t make it go away. Something hurts. You feel pain, but you don’t want to. So you act like it doesn’t bother you, you stuff it down, smile…. “move on”. But can you really just ignore the pain, pretend it …