Today was a rough day. That’s okay, that happens sometimes. My body has not been feeling its best self physically, my emotions are all over the place… It’s just been rough. In more ways than one. It’s nights like these, where I’m feeling a little bit extra fragile, that I need to…..be careful of. I’m …
Self medicating sucks. Until it doesn’t. And then it does again. Read More »
Even now, in the “best I’ve felt in years”, coming off a high of 2 vacations back to back, I’m struggling. Even now, after a day that wasn’t all bad. A day that had its moments of hope and promise…I’m struggling. Struggling means a lot of different things for me. Sometimes, it means the most …
I guess I’m feeling particularly lonely tonight, so I thought I’d share my most random, adhd, late night thoughts with you all. (Because I know you all care so much, right?) – After 9pm, my entire life just becomes one big ama! (Ask me anything). Seriously. All walls drop, and I just get very comfortable …
Random, late night thoughts. (AKA getting to know me?) Read More »
I have had a bad few days. A really, incredibly, fucked up few days. I thought therapy would go well tonight, and honestly, if I had kept my fucking mouth shut, it would have. It would’ve been fine. But I tried to open up. And every single fucking time I do that, when shit gets …
I’m never cold. Right now, it’s incredibly hot out, with a real feel of 110°f or higher just about every day. I’m intolerant of the heat, it makes me sick and pass out, and I hate it. But I’m laying in bad after a long and lonely night. A night, admittedly, made significantly better by …
I’m leaving in….36 hours? I have not started packing. Nothing is gathered or together. Laundry isn’t done. Well, it’s washed, but not folded. Traveling isn’t difficult for me. Packing isn’t difficult. So….what’s the fucking problem? Why am I suddenly SO paralyzed with anxiety and depression that NOTHING can get done? Am I so much of …
Do you ever just want to give up? Want to give in? Want to conform, want to adhere? Want to live up to societal standards of “the norm”? But just… can’t? Are you ever just so fucking sick of hiding yourself that you just………can’t anymore? Except for that face that you still have to? That’s …
Lately, I have been feeling……..a lot.It’s like I’m feeling everything. All the time. All at once. Constantly. So I find myself playing my oh-so-favorite game I like to call “Why do I feel like shit today?!?”Is it because I’m pregnant?Is it because I’m newly sober, and body still hates the shit out of me?Could it …
Earlier this week my (almost) 5 year old said something really meaningful to me. It was nearing bedtime, by far the most stressful part of the day for me. Neither him nor my (almost) 3 year old were listening particularly well, and I was definitely starting to get frustrated with them. My son recognized that …
Sometimes we all need to pause and take a breath Read More »
Does this happen to anyone else? I could be sitting there, attempting to drown out the noise from the universe around me…trying to convince myself that I’m fine. That everything is fine. But then randomly, my face betrays me and starts leaking. (Damn allergies.) I’m just in the middle of watching a show, drinking my …