I’ll be honest, as far as weekends go, this one was a pretty horrible one. Saturday during the day was actually okay. My husband took the 2 older boys out for a little bit during the day, and when he came home, he brought me a special dinner and gelato for me and the kids. […]
Instability leads to instability Read More »
Tonight has started out like all the other nights in the past where I ended up almost killing myself, or drinking so much that it nearly ended in tragedy. I’m in a fragile place right now. My husband and I have NOT always been on solid ground. Probably 3ish years ago, things were horrible and
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Today is the kind of day where I’m just feeling all my feelings. After I dropped my son off at school this morning, I kind of just broke down. I never cry, literally ever, but I just kind of had a moment when I was driving home. Something about how I dropped him off just
A day for feelings Read More »
This has been a strange week. Some might even call it a good week. I just dropped my son off for his third day of school. Today was a little bit harder, and he cried when I dropped him off. He said he missed me and didn’t want to go. So I told him every
Maybe I do deserve good things Read More »
For the past 6 years and 29 days, my son has been with me. He’s never been away from me, aside from a short period of time here and there with close family members. He’s been in my care, under my supervision, and by my side, for nearly all of his life. But that changes
First day of school Read More »
I’ve been denying it for weeks. It’s not that bad, it’s a coincidence, there’s no way I’m there yet. But tonight, it was undeniable. A sudden, massive headache, a different kind of anxiousness, and shaky hands. All from being 40 minutes late on my first drink. It took a little longer to put the baby
Don’t you love the mornings that you have packed with back to back doctor appointments? Atlas has his 4 month checkup this first thing this morning, and then right after that, I have to run home, put him to sleep, and get my oldest son so he can come with me to see my therapist,
Ready for positive change Read More »
I don’t feel like myself lately. Or, maybe, more accurately…I feel like a version of myself that I really, really hate. I’ve been feeling so disconnected from everyone lately. I feel disconnected from my husband, I’m not feeling that close, loving connection that I always desperately long for…and I’m feeling the same way with my
Yesterday morning, after months of being on the waitlist and hoping that this call would come sooner rather than later…we got the call that there is an opening for my son at the school we picked out for him. It’s a Montessori style school, and he’ll be starting kindergarten there. A spot opened up and
Nothing stays the same Read More »
First of all, today is a special day because it’s me and my husbands 7th wedding anniversary. So…yay for that❤️. But I’ll get back to that. Yesterday turned into a shitstorm quite quickly. After I wrote my post about having completely no energy, no spoons and just not feeling very okay at all…my son, once
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