I guess I’m feeling particularly lonely tonight, so I thought I’d share my most random, adhd, late night thoughts with you all. (Because I know you all care so much, right?) – After 9pm, my entire life just becomes one big ama! (Ask me anything). Seriously. All walls drop, and I just get very comfortable […]
Random, late night thoughts. (AKA getting to know me?) Read More »
Things are….not necessarily better. But I’m…managing. ……? (I think?) My husband is still gone. And likely will be for quite some time. For reference, he sent me a text this afternoons that said “you’re not the only one wiping butts!” I responded by sending him a cute picture of our baby, who just so happened
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I had an epically bad night last night. I started crying on the way home from therapy, and it got worse and and worse as the night went on. I literally could not calm down. And this morning, my eyes are still incredibly puffy and anyone who looks at me can obviously tell what kind
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I have had a bad few days. A really, incredibly, fucked up few days. I thought therapy would go well tonight, and honestly, if I had kept my fucking mouth shut, it would have. It would’ve been fine. But I tried to open up. And every single fucking time I do that, when shit gets
My best friend saved my life last night. I’m sure that sounds dramatic. I’m sure that sounds extra. But I assure you, it’s really not. I wasn’t in danger from myself. I’m doing just fine. My emotions and my…all of that…is truly doing just fine. But at some point last night…I started to feel unsafe.
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Whew. Life sure has been a whirlwind lately. I got home from my trip Saturday evening. By Monday, we got the news that my husbands dad, who has been battling cancer for a while, was not doing well. By Tuesday we were booking flights, and by Thursday, he left. My husband flew out yesterday to
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I’m never cold. Right now, it’s incredibly hot out, with a real feel of 110°f or higher just about every day. I’m intolerant of the heat, it makes me sick and pass out, and I hate it. But I’m laying in bad after a long and lonely night. A night, admittedly, made significantly better by
We’re here, we made it. Another birthday. To be honest, today doesn’t feel like my birthday in quite the traditional way. I did eat cake last night, and we had breakfast sandwiches early this morning for breakfast. My husband woke me up at 3:45am (thank you?) because he was excited or anxious or whatever else
29. And isn’t it a miracle? Read More »
I’m leaving in….36 hours? I have not started packing. Nothing is gathered or together. Laundry isn’t done. Well, it’s washed, but not folded. Traveling isn’t difficult for me. Packing isn’t difficult. So….what’s the fucking problem? Why am I suddenly SO paralyzed with anxiety and depression that NOTHING can get done? Am I so much of
What is wrong with me? Read More »
In typical my blog fashion, we’re going to start the week off with another, some sort of, oh, Monday post. My husband left the house to get some work done at 6am this morning, leaving me to get all the kids up and going by myself. That’s not a big deal, it’s something I do,
Is this called progress? Read More »