Lately, I’ve been finding myself in an interesting predicament. I make no secret about the fact that I don’t like myself, and that I basically hate everything about me….but…what does it mean if your child is exactly like you? My 5 year old is…well, he’s really something. Over the past year, more and more, he’ll …
When you don’t like yourself…but your kid is just like you. Read More »
Year 28. Much like last year, coming into my 28th year looks a lot different than I thought it would. Year 27 was…..brutal. It was probably one of the worst years to date. And trust me, I’ve had a lot of bad years. Like many years throughout my life, the beginning of last year started …
I don’t know what today holds, but I know it will consist of self care and listening to my body. I’ve been physically and mentally exhausted, and I am running on empty. I’m 23 weeks pregnant today, and I’m feeling it every second. Today, if I need to sleep, I will sleep. If I need …
Lately, I’ve been trying to notice when I feel something…less than dead and empty inside. These moments of life and peace are few and far between, but they do show up from time to time. I notice the little moments of joy usually in the quiet parts of my day. After I get the kids …
Something I’ve been struggling a lot with lately is figuring out who I really am. Aside from a mom and a wife and all the roles that go along with that…who am I? What makes me happy? What makes me feel fulfilled, or unique, or like an individual? I honestly do not have the answer …
It’s always nice when the day starts off on the right foot. When things have even just the chance of being okay. I went to the dentist first thing this morning at 7am, and honestly, it was kind of nice to just go there and sit and be still and quiet and think. Even if …
The thing about life is that…it’s going to happen. It happens to all of us. Some of us make it through relatively unscathed, but for the majority of us? We fight our battles and get our wounds. I’ve had to battle and scrap my way through this life in every single one of my 27 …
I’ve always…very quietly, and very under the radar, struggled with weight gain. As in, it’s something I hate doing, and therefor don’t. My BMI typically hangs out around 18 or 19. And while I don’t go to extreme measures to keep it that way (anymore), I actively make food choices to support a “healthier” lifestyle. …
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I’ve always been a writer. Even going as far back as elementary school, I’ve always gravitated towards writing to communicate my feelings. I had…a rather intense childhood, and it’s not something I like to think about or relive. Since we’re going to be starting EMDR in therapy soon…I’m kind of going to be forced to …
My therapist is always telling me to “stop chasing the feeling”. It pisses me off just a little, not gonna lie, and I really have no idea what she means. But it stuck. It sunk in. She’s right, that is what I do. And more often than not, it gets me into trouble. I’m always …