suicide

A day too late

Hey, I’m just checking in. I’m one of those annoying people that notices and cares when I think something might be up, so I just wanted to let you know that I’m here if you need me at all or need to talk. Hope you’re doing okay. ❤️ That was the exact message that I …

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Irony

I didn’t get better fast enough, and now I’m feeling alarmingly worse. I wasn’t vulnerable enough, couldn’t feel secure fast enough. And now I don’t know if it will ever be possible to feel those things. Some things got better, but it wasn’t better enough. I was struggling, barely holding on. And it feels like …

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It just hurts too much.

I’m tired. I’m too tired to keep doing this. I don’t have anything better than that to say today. Depression is kicking my ass, the pain is winning, and I feel broken and alone. I keep wondering what the point is, and I just don’t think there is one anymore. I’m not okay. I haven’t …

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I don’t want to do what’s hard, I want to do what feels good.

That’s the phrase going around in my head right now. Like a child throwing a tantrum. I don’t want to do what’s right, what’s hard…what’s “good”. I want to do what feels good. What feels good right now. Not next week, not next month, I want to feel good right now. I want what’s easy, …

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