My strongest desire right now is to run. Run from my life. Run from my problems, run from my fears. Right now, things are just about as bad as they get. On the outside? I’m seemingly very strong. Very put together…very normal. But that’s not how I’m feeling. I’m feeling frantic. I’m feeling overwhelmed. And […]
When I tell you that I had a phenomenally bad day yesterday…I truly mean just that. I mean that it was an egregiously bad day. And I never want to think about it again or relive it. By some kind of actual miracle, I ended up having therapy yesterday afternoon. I didn’t have my typical
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I will say, not having therapy last night really threw me off. I’m a big fan of routine and consistency and normalcy. But more importantly than that…I’m a big fan of self care. And healing. And taking the time for myself. The 2 hours I get to spend in therapy every Monday is just that.
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Well. This Monday morning got off to an absolutely unnecessary start. We woke up (were woken up) by my older 2 kids screaming in their rooms at like 5:45. Fine. Whatever. I’ll just start my day and drink coffee with my husband like we do every morning. But then my husband ignores me for 10
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Last night, my husband and I were talking about our 4 year old son, Phoenix, and a….different…approach to parenting him that I’ve been trying recently. which has…seemed to work? Basically, the more over the top negative and attention seeking he is, the more aggressively over the top positive I am with him. COMPLETELY ignoring his
Sarcasm, parenting, and finding things to laugh about. Read More »
I saw a post on Facebook yesterday that basically emphasized the importance of letting people in. Letting people in even though the house is messy. Even though things aren’t perfect. Even if you haven’t “prepared”. I can see the importance of that. Not allowing the clutter or the lived in to shut down connection and
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Last night at like 8:30pm, we got a text from the realtor. “We’re still in negotiations with the neighbor who is trying to buy the whole 7 acres and the barnShe (the seller) wont take less than $150k for 3 acresWe’re only $3k apart as far as that goesAnd we’re not saying no to selling
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Sometimes, the best therapy sessions require not so many words. She knows me well enough to know the big things. How I’m feeling without having to explain why I feel this way. The history is significant enough to where I can tell her the facts, and I don’t need to explain the emotions. We sat
Word count isn’t everything, but real connection is. Read More »
This has been a topic I’ve help close. It’s stayed quiet, and near and dear to my heart, and for the most part…rather undiscussed for the the past 14 months. In case you don’t know what’s going on, basically it boils down to the fact that I’m trying to buy the (perfect) piece of land.
Do you ever just wake up and feel a certain…moral opposition to the day? I woke up this morning, and I was simply offended. Like, how dare this day exist like this today. Sort of like how Monday didn’t feel like Monday this week, I guess Friday doesn’t really feel like Friday either. I really
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