Happy Saturday, everyone!
Oh, it has been a looooong week. My son is still pretty sick, and last nigh was rough for him. He was crying in his bed every few minutes “mommy, I need a tissue again, open the door!” He refuses to let me leave anything different or new in his bed. I can’t leave him with his own tissues or towel or blanket or anything that in his opinion *shouldn’t* be there. He’s cute though, so I didn’t mind. I got a lot of hugs out of it.
My brother is flying back home this weekend after visiting for Thanksgiving. Him and I are super close, so we always love it when he comes to visit. But I’m honestly so exhausted, mentally and physically.
Today will be a beautifully rainy day and I’ve tried to set myself up for success. Clean sheets and bedding (literally, there’s nothing better then when your bedding is fresh out of the wash and smells brand new), my favorite smelling oils, salads and Starbucks ready to go for the day ahead, Netflix ready to go…oh and I’m supposed to read a book. And eat snacks.
I don’t know where (or what) my husband is going to do today with the kids…seeing as my younger one is currently a walking disaster, so…but that’s for him to figure out today. 😂
I feel bad, but also, I don’t. I’m at a point where I really can’t effectively take care of them or anyone else unless I get some time to myself to unwind. The coming weeks aren’t going to get any easier. My sister…why I actually despise…will be coming for a few weeks to stay here until after New Years. That fact alone is enough to make me go crazy.
So I’m taking today, I’m putting myself first, and I’m kicking every living creature out of my house. Besides the dogs, of course. I’ll probably get bored and lonely after an out or 2, but that’s still a better feeling than the constant anxiety and edginess that I’d otherwise be feeling.
Today is going to be a good day because I’m going to make it be a good day. I desperately need it, and I don’t want to waste it.
Maybe I just won’t look at those 3 loads of laundry that need to be folded and put away…..
If you have any other ideas on how to make the most of today and feel genuinely relaxed, feel free to let me know…! I hope you all have a good day as well. Try to remember to build in time for yourself and listen to your body. I know it’s hard, but it’s necessary.