This flare up has been truly unimaginable. I feel like it’s taken everything from me. The past few weeks have been nothing but pain and hurting and…just trying to survive. My joints hurt, my head hurts, my body hurts, my nerves hurt. My freaking soul hurts. This summer has kicked my ass. Physically, emotionally and […]
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How I’ve been feeling these last few days…these last few weeks even…. It’s not okay. I feel like shit. Physically, I’m in the worst flare up I’ve been in in a long time. I can’t sleep both because of the extra levels of pain, and the additional nightmares. Despite my husband working what seems like
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Last night, we had some crazy storms come through. Like, hurricane force winds type of thing. So, that was fun. It didn’t end up hitting our area until around 12:30am, so I pretty much stayed up most of the night. It was a night full of emergency alerts and stress, and I woke up today
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Things have been…ugly bad lately. Summer home with all 3 kids has been impossible. And it’s only been 2 weeks. It’s my oldest in particular that’s challenging me the most. He’s struggling with the transition between school and summer, and he’s reflecting in his behavior. I’m doing the best I can with it, but I’m
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For as different as things have been feeling lately…I think things are finally starting to fall into place a little bit. The out of the ordinary is starting to feel ordinary, the things not normally part of my day are starting to feel like a normal part of every day now, and the weird is
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Ugh. Summer vacation is officially here. The kids have been some since Thursday last week, and I’m already losing my mind. It doesn’t help that I’ve been basically single parenting for the entire time, when I’d hoped I’d get some time off instead. Usually, on a 3 day weekend, my husband would definitely take the
Well, here we are. The last day of school. Shit. Now, I love my kids. I really do. But I don’t think anyone loves the idea or the task of being home with THREE boys all day, everyday. All day with an 8, 6 and 2 year old? Ugh. Everyone annoys everyone, someone is always
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It’s been another week full of business and chaos and complicated feelings. So…basically a completely normal week for me. 🤦🏻♀️ Tomorrow is Mother’s Day, which, if you know me, you’ll know I have some pretty complicated feelings about. In the adoption community the day before Mother’s Day is known as Birth Mother’s Day. And that
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I don’t know what I’m looking for, but I feel like I’m constantly searching for something. Something to fulfill me. To feel less empty, to feel like I have a place in this world. Or a purpose. I really don’t know. I just feel so… empty. Or lacking. Like there’s a part of me that
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While the universe has been not so subtly kicking my ass the last few weeks, I have been struggling to hang in there. The more life shit and stress and all of the extra that piles on, the more overwhelmed and burnt out I get. I wish I could say we were out of the
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