Well, here we are. The first day of school.
My 7 year old is off to 2nd grade, and my 5 year old has officially started kindergarten.
Phoenix, my 5 year old, woke up this morning screaming throughout the house BEST DAY EVER!!!!! in mantra format, so….I guess you could say he’s excited?
He’s, um…well, he’s my wild one. Phoenix has Christian’s teacher from last year, and I’ve been trying to prepare her for quite some time of his wild personality. And how he is the 100% polar opposite of Christian in every way possible.
I’m actually not as worried about him as I am about Christian. He has a new teacher this year who I don’t know, and he’s much more reserved in a classroom setting. Plus, with him spending a full week in the hospital just a few months ago in pretty seriously bad shape…yeah. I worry about him. I worry about all of them.
And of course Atlas, my almost 2 year old (🥲) woke up with a cold this morning. Ugh! well, we had a good few months of everyone being healthy, so I can’t complain too much. As long as they all keep themselves out of the damn hospital.
My boys piss me off to a degree that is just…exhausting. But wouldn’t trade it. Not a second of it.
I’m so proud of them on a daily basis for just existing. For getting through all of the obstacles they face just for being in their own bodies.
Despite that, they’re all amazing kids. Christian won multiple awards this summer in camp for his BEHAVIOR. For being the most respectful and well behaved kid there. I was pretty pleased with him for that. He was proud of himself too, which is what I wanted him to feel.
I hope this year goes completely flawlessly for them. I love their school, we’ve had nothing but good experiences with them for the past year and a half that we’ve been there, and I have to trust that they’ll continue to take care of them…even if they are complicated and…occasionally wild. 😅
I’m definitely feeling the feels today. Between them starting school, Phoenix being officially away from me and just…them growing up…it’s hard.
I’m going through a pretty serious health scare right now myself, and I just feel like time is slipping away.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared about things…their future, my immediate health…all of it.
So today, despite the fears, I’ll focus on their successes. And mine. After all, I did a lot of the work in getting them here! And they’re not turning out so badly, I suppose. 🙃