I hate today because of what tomorrow is. It already feels so heavy, the tidal wave of grief is already starting to flood in. Tomorrow is my birth son’s 11th birthday. A day that consumes me with grief and depression every single year. I don’t have a plan for tomorrow, I don’t know how I’m […]
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On April 4th, 2023, my birth son turned 10 years old. An obviously important and huge milestone. For both him and for me. Also on this day, a baby goat was born, who we would pick up and take home with us 2 days later. My birth son and this goat, who I intentionally got
Dear son, Today, you’ll finally get the gift I sent you in the mail for Christmas. Despite my own timeliness, USPS had other prerogatives, and your “guaranteed” Christmas Eve arrival is only just getting to you today…on the 30th. I’m truly so sorry about the delay, I hoped to have it there as promised…by Christmas.
I’m sitting here in Provo airport waiting to board my flight home. It’s only 12pm now, but I have about 6 hours of travel ahead of me, and a time change, so I’m not looking to be home before 7pm. I’m exhausted and emotionally depleted, but in the best way possible I think. I have
A few weeks ago, I shared the story of Bobby, an abandoned/dumped dog in absolutely horrible shape that found his way to my back door. I’ll link that here in case you missed it and want to catch up. When I wrote that, he’d only been around for just a few days, and his future
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Well, here we are. The first day of school. My 7 year old is off to 2nd grade, and my 5 year old has officially started kindergarten. Phoenix, my 5 year old, woke up this morning screaming throughout the house BEST DAY EVER!!!!! in mantra format, so….I guess you could say he’s excited? He’s, um…well,
Quite simply put, this weekend has been a bit brutal. It’s been nothing short of….tumultuous and ups and downs and fear and anxiety and panic and frustrations and laughter and allowing myself to be loved and forgiveness and tears and blood and alcohol and everything in the middle and nothing left out. We’re emotionally fragile,
Tumultuous, but each week starts anew. Read More »
You all know this weekend, at least here in America, is Mother’s Day. But what you very likely didn’t know, is that today, the Saturday before Mother’s Day, is known as Birth Mother’s Day. It’s a day specifically for birth moms, those that have placed a child for adoption. Every adoption and adoption journey looks
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Sometimes, nights have no business being as good as they are. Like tonight, for instance. Last night, my husband got the news that his dad, who has been on hospice battling many forms of cancer, had less than 2 months to live. His throat cancer had returned (on top of the liver and colon cancer),
Hard, but not broken. And worth it anyway. Read More »
Normal. adjective 1. Confirming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. Yesterday was…a good…normal…day. I’m extraordinarily hesitant to define it as such, because normalcy is just such a craved and foreign phenomenon around here. And, in fact, it was such a weird day, that it couldn’t POSSIBLY be defined as “normal”. My oldest son stayed
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