Dear universe, please help me. I feel so scared and alone right now. Everything hurts and I feel like there’s no way out but…out.
I’m losing ground in a battle that isn’t mine to win. I feel like I’m drowning, and instead of sending lifeboats, people are throwing rocks.
Universe, I don’t ask of much from you. I rarely take and often give. But please, this time, I need you on my side.
Please don’t take from me what very little I have, what smallest things signify hope and promise.
I’m no longer just struggling, I’m suffering.
I had hope, I had a small glimmer of hope that things would be okay, that I’d be able to use this time to work through things and be okay. But it seems that I’ve fucked that up beyond repair, and now that hope doesn’t belong to me anymore.
I kept getting dealt blow after blow, and I’m out of strength to fight it.
Please, universe, don’t abandon me. I need you, I need something on my side. Please, just please don’t take anything else from me.
I don’t want to give up, but I’m barely hanging on. I feel so weak, and I just need help finding the strength again.
Please help me. Please don’t leave me when I need you the most, universe.