Last night, we had some crazy storms come through. Like, hurricane force winds type of thing. So, that was fun. It didn’t end up hitting our area until around 12:30am, so I pretty much stayed up most of the night. It was a night full of emergency alerts and stress, and I woke up today […]
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Things have been…ugly bad lately. Summer home with all 3 kids has been impossible. And it’s only been 2 weeks. It’s my oldest in particular that’s challenging me the most. He’s struggling with the transition between school and summer, and he’s reflecting in his behavior. I’m doing the best I can with it, but I’m
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For as different as things have been feeling lately…I think things are finally starting to fall into place a little bit. The out of the ordinary is starting to feel ordinary, the things not normally part of my day are starting to feel like a normal part of every day now, and the weird is
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Ugh. Summer vacation is officially here. The kids have been some since Thursday last week, and I’m already losing my mind. It doesn’t help that I’ve been basically single parenting for the entire time, when I’d hoped I’d get some time off instead. Usually, on a 3 day weekend, my husband would definitely take the
This is a post for accountability. Things have been hard. Obviously. But I’ve been sober. Mostly. I’ve done a job worthy of being insanely proud of. After 15 years of more or less active (alcohol) addiction, I dug myself out, alone, and got myself sober. It was grueling and excruciating. It hurt. Physically, emotionally, and
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I’m in a phase of life where things are just…really freaking hard. It’s a lot of stress and frustrations and things I simply cannot control. No matter how much I try, or I might want to. Mother’s Day yesterday was rough, but…it was fine. I was sick with a cold, we spent just about all
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Do you know what happens when you open up a pressure cooker without first releasing the pressure? Well, if you don’t, here’s what happens. “The contents will erupt violently, potentially causing serious burns, injuries, and property damage.” Thaaaaaaaats how I felt last night. And honestly, how I am still feeling now. Like I was opened
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This past week has truly been…unfathomable. It’s been hard. And heartbreaking. And lonely, and brutal, and so on. I’ve been shut down. Because any alternative has honestly been too much to consider. I feel broken and…yeah. Just broken. I had therapy tonight after a truly horrific day. While I don’t yet have the words or
I feel like I’m caught in between two realities I don’t quite fit into anymore. Two worlds I have no business being a part of. An old and a new. A past and a future. And I’m not sure I belong on either side. The anxiety tonight is intense. The physical pain of the withdrawals
My depression right now currently does not care about me. Not about what I need, not about what I want, and not about how I feel. It doesn’t care if I isolate myself to the point of not existing anymore. It doesn’t care if the pain inside of my head and my hurt make me
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