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A run down day

Therapy Tuesdays have officially turned into therapy Mondays. I don’t love the change schedule wise…it makes my Monday nights much more rushed do to the kids therapy schedule, but other than that, it went well.

Just because of how the schedule works out, I won’t have therapy next week. And that honestly stresses me out so much. I don’t know why skipping a week feels so bad, but it does. It makes me feel anxious and alone.

I’m glad therapy went well. I left feeling overall better than I came, which is usually a good measure of success.

Probably the biggest shock of all is that I didn’t drink when I got home. Admittedly, I did drink a little bit before I went, just to take the edge off and to make it go smoother…but not a lot. I know I need to not do that, and I need to find different ways to deal with my anxiety.

Anyway, that’s really all I have for right now. I’m not feeling great, and I think I have mastitis. I’ve never had it before, but I’m suddenly on a TON of pain. So I’m just not feeling great right now.

The baby is officially 3 weeks old today, and despite the probable mastitis what is developing..things have been going well with him. The last 2 nights he’s given me a 7 hour stretch of sleep, which means he’s only waking up once a night to eat instead of twice. That right there is freaking amazing, and I’ll take it.

Thankfully, my husband is still on paternity leave, so he’s helping out with the big kids today while I stay home with the baby. I’m really not feeling great with body aches and all that, so I’m definitely glad I’ll be able to rest when the baby naps.

And in case you were wondering, yes, feeding the baby currently feels like actual torture. It feels like attaching a tiny piranha to my chest, and it’s fucking brutal.

Hopefully this is short lived and I start feeling better soon, but in the meantime…ugh.

I’m glad therapy went well, and I’m glad that my husband is available to help me out today. I know what my body needs is rest, so hopefully I’ll be able to do that.

It’s really going to suck when he goes back to work.

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