Ugh. Summer vacation is officially here. The kids have been some since Thursday last week, and I’m already losing my mind. It doesn’t help that I’ve been basically single parenting for the entire time, when I’d hoped I’d get some time off instead. Usually, on a 3 day weekend, my husband would definitely take the […]
This is a post for accountability. Things have been hard. Obviously. But I’ve been sober. Mostly. I’ve done a job worthy of being insanely proud of. After 15 years of more or less active (alcohol) addiction, I dug myself out, alone, and got myself sober. It was grueling and excruciating. It hurt. Physically, emotionally, and
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Do you know what happens when you open up a pressure cooker without first releasing the pressure? Well, if you don’t, here’s what happens. “The contents will erupt violently, potentially causing serious burns, injuries, and property damage.” Thaaaaaaaats how I felt last night. And honestly, how I am still feeling now. Like I was opened
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This past week has truly been…unfathomable. It’s been hard. And heartbreaking. And lonely, and brutal, and so on. I’ve been shut down. Because any alternative has honestly been too much to consider. I feel broken and…yeah. Just broken. I had therapy tonight after a truly horrific day. While I don’t yet have the words or
I feel like I’m caught in between two realities I don’t quite fit into anymore. Two worlds I have no business being a part of. An old and a new. A past and a future. And I’m not sure I belong on either side. The anxiety tonight is intense. The physical pain of the withdrawals
The past 6 days have honestly been the most wild whirlwind of events and roller coasters that I’ve experienced in quite some time. Okay, here’s the deal. It’s March. Which means, it’s birthday month. Technically, yes. My birth son’s birthday is in April…April 4th. But the entire lead up to it is in March, which
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I’m definitely in a good bit of a funk right now. I’m hanging in there and doing the best that I can, but I can honestly say that I’m not where I want to be right now mentally. The weather is changing, it’s warming up…which means more stress on my heart and in my body
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I can’t help but feeling and thinking about just how vastly different things are now than how they were even just 5-6 months ago. Last night, I had therapy. Not with my therapist who I’ve had for literally the past 10 years straight of my life…but with someone extremely new, when you’re measuring it to
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Once again, here we are in Texas with well below freezing temps, waiting on yet another snow/ice storm to grace us with its presence this week. I’m not mad about it, the born and raised Long Islander was built for this and it finally feels right for my body temperature wise here. I’m still having
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Well here we sit on this lovely-ish Thursday morning in Texas just waiting for the snow to fall. It’s unclear just how much snow vs. ice vs. rain/sleet we’ll actually get…all we know is there is a LOT of precipitation heading for us and the temps are right at 33° right now, and supposed to
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