Tonight is hard.
Today was hard.
The last 2 weeks have been hard.
Tonight might be the hardest.
My husband and I got really bad news today. While multiple states and hours apart physically, we both got absolutely devastating news.
I’m trying to lift him up.
He’s trying to….idk. He feels badly. And wants desperately to come home. As evidence by our text exchange
He’s a famously bad texter, and he meant to say “well that’s not good, we’ll definitely have to wean you off that”
Either way, I really don’t care.
I’m having a bad night. A straight up, shitty ass fucking bad night. I’m not handling this bad news well.
So, as I just sent to my best friend who I really haven’t talked to in a few days (her or anyone else)…
This video makes me smile. I don’t want or expect her to respond. I’m pretty over …any and all relationships at this point. Marriage, fiends, therapy…none of it feels hopeful or good.
But sometimes, you just need a fucking reason to get you through the next 60 seconds.
I’m absolutely god damn fucking struggling. I can not possibly scream it louder for those of you in the back than I am right now.
Hi 👋 this is me. And life is hard right now. For so, so many reasons.
But I have to keep going.
And here’s my next 60 seconds.
A hug and a disgusting kiss from a tiny little baby who means so damn much to me.
Watch it over and over.
The next 60 seconds.
Sometimes, that’s all you have.
So keep it going.
60 seconds at a time.