This flare up has been truly unimaginable. I feel like it’s taken everything from me. The past few weeks have been nothing but pain and hurting and…just trying to survive. My joints hurt, my head hurts, my body hurts, my nerves hurt. My freaking soul hurts. This summer has kicked my ass. Physically, emotionally and […]
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For as different as things have been feeling lately…I think things are finally starting to fall into place a little bit. The out of the ordinary is starting to feel ordinary, the things not normally part of my day are starting to feel like a normal part of every day now, and the weird is
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Ugh. Summer vacation is officially here. The kids have been some since Thursday last week, and I’m already losing my mind. It doesn’t help that I’ve been basically single parenting for the entire time, when I’d hoped I’d get some time off instead. Usually, on a 3 day weekend, my husband would definitely take the
I’m in a phase of life where things are just…really freaking hard. It’s a lot of stress and frustrations and things I simply cannot control. No matter how much I try, or I might want to. Mother’s Day yesterday was rough, but…it was fine. I was sick with a cold, we spent just about all
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Do you know what happens when you open up a pressure cooker without first releasing the pressure? Well, if you don’t, here’s what happens. “The contents will erupt violently, potentially causing serious burns, injuries, and property damage.” Thaaaaaaaats how I felt last night. And honestly, how I am still feeling now. Like I was opened
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I don’t know what I’m looking for, but I feel like I’m constantly searching for something. Something to fulfill me. To feel less empty, to feel like I have a place in this world. Or a purpose. I really don’t know. I just feel so… empty. Or lacking. Like there’s a part of me that
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While the universe has been not so subtly kicking my ass the last few weeks, I have been struggling to hang in there. The more life shit and stress and all of the extra that piles on, the more overwhelmed and burnt out I get. I wish I could say we were out of the
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When it rains it pours here. And oh, is that exactly what it’s doing. My post on Thursday detailed my own semi medical emergency that I was going through, and just as I had FINALLY agreed to go to the ER to be seen on Friday…guess what happens? I get a call from my son’s
April showers? More like constant storms! Read More »
My depression right now currently does not care about me. Not about what I need, not about what I want, and not about how I feel. It doesn’t care if I isolate myself to the point of not existing anymore. It doesn’t care if the pain inside of my head and my hurt make me
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This week has been a massive variation of highs and lows, and I can honestly say I’m just so glad that it’s finally Saturday. And that I can’t wait for therapy on Tuesday. Overall, I’m feeling pretty okay this morning. I have the entire house to myself for a least a good few hours, and
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