Last night, we had some crazy storms come through. Like, hurricane force winds type of thing. So, that was fun. It didn’t end up hitting our area until around 12:30am, so I pretty much stayed up most of the night. It was a night full of emergency alerts and stress, and I woke up today […]
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For as different as things have been feeling lately…I think things are finally starting to fall into place a little bit. The out of the ordinary is starting to feel ordinary, the things not normally part of my day are starting to feel like a normal part of every day now, and the weird is
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Ugh. Summer vacation is officially here. The kids have been some since Thursday last week, and I’m already losing my mind. It doesn’t help that I’ve been basically single parenting for the entire time, when I’d hoped I’d get some time off instead. Usually, on a 3 day weekend, my husband would definitely take the
Do you know what happens when you open up a pressure cooker without first releasing the pressure? Well, if you don’t, here’s what happens. “The contents will erupt violently, potentially causing serious burns, injuries, and property damage.” Thaaaaaaaats how I felt last night. And honestly, how I am still feeling now. Like I was opened
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Ugh. That’s all I have to say this morning. My husband and I have been working our asses off lately trying to get caught up on our bills. Doing door dashing in every spare moment we have, trying to squeeze every workable ounce out of a day. Last night, it was a pretty horrible storm
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This past week has truly been…unfathomable. It’s been hard. And heartbreaking. And lonely, and brutal, and so on. I’ve been shut down. Because any alternative has honestly been too much to consider. I feel broken and…yeah. Just broken. I had therapy tonight after a truly horrific day. While I don’t yet have the words or
My depression right now currently does not care about me. Not about what I need, not about what I want, and not about how I feel. It doesn’t care if I isolate myself to the point of not existing anymore. It doesn’t care if the pain inside of my head and my hurt make me
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The past 6 days have honestly been the most wild whirlwind of events and roller coasters that I’ve experienced in quite some time. Okay, here’s the deal. It’s March. Which means, it’s birthday month. Technically, yes. My birth son’s birthday is in April…April 4th. But the entire lead up to it is in March, which
Ready to fight, almost ready to hope. Read More »
This is a hard season, I’m not going to lie. My mind has been messy for a minute now, the trauma of the past year, and really all of it in general, is catching up to me. I’ve been holding on, fighting a winless fight for a long time now. This time of year isn’t
Losing battles, winning wars Read More »
Lately, the hurt hurts. And it hurts really fucking badly. I feel like I don’t have even the most fleeting of moments to catch my breath. To catch up. To…..nullify or lessen even an ounce of the hurt. The days are so long, and the nights have felt even longer. Nightmare, after nightmare, after nightmare.
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