As always, therapy last night sure was something.
I wasn’t bad. But it made me think about things.
We talked a lot about being more mindful and more intentional, which, in my current state of ADHD actually kicking my ass, has been QUITE challenging lately.
We talked about the drinking thing. And how I need to make a mindful decision about where I want to go. If I actually want to *try* to do this whole stupid sobriety thing. Which, I do. As terrifying as it is. And as much as it feels like this enormous and impossible thing…it’s what I need to do.
Last night after therapy, I got home and did what I always do. Make a drink. Eat a snack that my husband had ready for me (literally my favorite thing in the entire world to come home from therapy with a snack waiting for me!!). And then we went down the wormhole that is YouTube in search for all things comedy and lighthearted and funny.
I’m completely fascinated with all things hypnotism ever since I was in college and saw a hypnotist that came to our campus to do a show. My close friend was one of the people to get chosen to be on stage, and yes, without a doubt, it’s a real thing.
Combine that with comedy? Brilliant.
The thing that attracts me to the idea of hypnotism so much is the fact that it just goes to show how incredibly powerful our minds are. It really is just as simple as making suggestions to our minds that then become reality.
And really, isn’t that what we’re always in a state of doing? Making suggestions to ourselves, our minds, to do better, make better choices, overcome, grow…all of it?
That’s what we’re all doing here. Speaking to ourselves, our minds, and trying to overcome. Except sometimes our minds can’t hear us. And we need to be a little more direct. Speak to ourselves on a deeper level. Be more “mindful” or intentional and shit.
And I just think it’s really cool that “all” we need to do to succeed is just get to a place where we make the choice, have that intent, and then get on the same page with yourself and start making steps to make it happen.
I say that as if it’s easy, and it’s not. It’s…incredibly complicated and higher level in thinking. But…it makes sense. At least for me. And if I can look at it from a place that makes sense, at least to me, then I have a higher chance of succeeding.
I don’t know. That’s my wormhole. That’s my take on life right now.
Oh, and by the way, I drank way fucking less than usual last night for the first time in MONTHS…and I’m pretty proud of myself for that.
I really think I can get to a good place if I have enough momentum to carry myself there.
I’ll put this video down below, it’s a particularly good one called Hypnotist vs Skeptic! And I think the title pretty much speaks for itself. Skip to around 15 minutes in if you want to hypnosis stuff (but I think the entire thing is pretty awesome 🙃)
