The burden is lifted

Well, I did it. I finished the, at this point infamous and tedious gift, of 6 painstakingly handmade crocheted gifts for my birth son, got it off in the mail, and it’s set to arrive tomorrow…just in time for Christmas.

I also wanted to include a picture of us holding all the items, so we took (a hundred) pictures to get one that was…good enough lol…and I framed it and sent it along with his gift. Along with a letter and a few other things, like a Roblox sweatshirt and gift card.

The relief I felt when I finally got his gift in the mail and the burden that got lifted…oof. It was nice.

It was what his parents requested of me this year, and even though it might not be the most “fun” gift for a 10 year old…I hope he feels the loved I poured into it.

The stress isn’t completely gone though, even though that burden is lifted from me. Far from it.

My brother is flying in today until after New Years, and while I love when he comes and spending time with him…it’s always when my sister gets exponentially worse and more abusive towards me (and anyone in her path, really) because she can’t stand the positive relationship I have with my brother.

So…love that for me. 🙄

As far as Christmas stuff goes, all the hard parts are done. (I think.) I’ve mostly finished all my wrapping, buying and cleaning, despite a few things here and there.

Pneumonia is still making the rounds here, my mom is the next one down and I’m just waiting for it to hit me next. Thankfully all the kids avoided a hospital stay, but only just barely. I’d love to not be sick on Christmas, or while my brother is here, but I am grateful that it seems like the kids are past the worst of it and won’t be sick on Christmas.

My husband is working today, but I’m so looking forward to him being home tomorrow and for the next few days. Him and I are in a good season of life right now where even though life around us is impossibly difficult…we’re going through it together and know what the other needs most of the time.

Today is a very Friday feeling Monday. And I’m happy about it. This week will bring stress. But I’m hoping it also brings magic and happiness.

Today is more cleaning, wrapping, and making things just right. Tonight will be the first night of the holiday season Derek and I look forward to…hanging out with my brother and laughing and having a genuinely good time.

We freaking deserve the positive and happy moments too.