Atlas Isaac. Today, you turn one. To be honest, first birthdays are always a bit hard for me. There’s just something so special and so magical about the first year. Watching them learn and change so quickly, experiencing so many firsts together, it’s always been an emotional day for me. This one is no different. …
It’s not his job to keep me sober. It’s not his job to make me happy. And it isn’t his job to make me okay again. There’s a little boy, he’s 6 days old now. And I love him more than anything. Not more than his brothers, but just as much. This little boy has …
It’s been 4 days since baby Atlas was born, and we’ve been adjusting to life with him since. Aside from night 2, which was by far the worst, things with him have been going rather well. He naps for 2 and a half hours at a time, he wakes to eat and get his diaper …
We got home from the hospital yesterday around 4pm. The kids met their new baby brother and opened their “big brother” gifts and had were very excited about the whole thing. After they went to bed, reality sink in and I kind of started to panic and get some really bad anxiety. Looking over at …
After a whirlwind past few days, I can finally say that our son, baby Atlas Isaac, is here. If you’re wondering about the the details of how it all went, here it goes. We got to the hospital at 8pm after calling and them telling us when to arrive. They did not have any beds …
Well, it’s here. Induction day is here. After 39 weeks, a lot of chaos, and a lot of patience…it’s finally time to meet this baby. We are scheduled to get to the hospital at 5pm and the actual induction process should happen I think sometime in the early morning. Since I’m already pretty far progressed …
Well, if all goes according to plan, late tomorrow night is baby day. As long as the hospital has a bed open (which really is very hit or miss), I’ll be getting induced late tomorrow night, like after 10pm, and we will have our baby boy here by early Tuesday morning. If there isn’t a …
Yesterday at my 38 week appointment, because yes, I’m still freaking pregnant, my doctor told me that I was already 3-4cm dilated. Which, yes, is a lot. Usually, by the time you’re at 4cm, you’re already well on your way to being in active labor. But yeah, my body just doesn’t want to cooperate fully …
I woke up today with a sense of anxiety and sadness. I don’t know why, I rarely do, but it’s just very present. Things have been a bit overwhelming in my life lately, and I’ve resorted to basically extreme avoidance as a way of dealing with it. But when I get more avoidant, I usually …
Ahhhhggggg!!!! That’s how I’m feeling this morning. Like, I kind of just want to scream a little bit. Waking up still pregnant this morning was like a punch in the gut. My husband and I both felt the same way…like, just completely devastated that we have to begin another week in our “normalcy”. Him going …