The Therapy Journey

When your husband (unexpectedly) comes to therapy

As if last night wasn’t weird enough, going to therapy on a Monday instead of a Tuesday…my husband decided to come at the last minute too. Now, I don’t mind him coming, and had no problem at all with it…but it did go…more difficultly than I expected. We’ve talked about all of the topics that …

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Accepting that I cannot control this.

The first(?) step towards breaking down this brick wall that I’ve built around myself is to just admit that I cannot control this. I have no control over my addictions, over alcohol…I just can’t control it. That’s the focus in therapy right now. Just simply coming to terms with the fact that this is not …

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Stop walking into the wall!

Therapy last night went…almost as well as it could have. Thankfully, we seem to be back to normal, and there isn’t any of that uncomfortable tension or awkwardness between us anymore. Now, it’s just back to the regular awkwardness and anxiety. Hah. Mostly, we talked about addiction, and what the fuck I’m going to to …

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When therapy starts to feel healing

When therapy goes well, everything else seems to go well, too. Last night, thankfully, therapy went well. And by “went well”, I don’t mean that’s she’s “nice” to me, or easy on me, or anything like that…(although that is always preferred)…I mean that we end up having a good conversation, I don’t feel overly anxious …

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It’s all I can do to hold on sometimes.

Last night, for the first time in 3 or 4 years, I had to cancel therapy. Usually, I’d rather die than actually cancel. But I wasn’t left with a choice last night. It sucked, and now I feel a certain sense of despair and hopelessness that therapy usually (hopefully) combats. It was just another night …

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