There is too much pain in this world. There is too much suicide, too much loneliness, too much isolation. Yet another person I have grown very close to over the past few years has taken their own life, and frankly, it’s devastating. I don’t know how to put into words how I’m feeling right now …
It starts with one drink. One, simple, weak, controlled drink. A seltzer, not even a real drink. I was grieving, I was sad. I deserve this. Then, it was two. Because one drink never stays one drink. Two seltzers. They don’t count. It’s not even a mixed drink. It’s not a cocktail. It doesn’t count. …
The baby is now 10 days old. To be honest, it’s probably the easiest experience with a newborn that I’ve ever had. My 5 year old was…ptsd inducing horrible as a newborn, and it was an awful experience. Of course we didn’t know he had all the health issues that we know now…but it was …
The past few days, I’ve been having a pretty hard time again. It’s been 2 weeks or so since I’ve been to therapy, and I’m going back next week….But that 3ish week break since having the baby is the longest break I’ve had in a long time. And I really need to get back. I …
I’ve lost friends to suicide before in my life. I’ve lost more to unintentional overdoses and stuff like that, but there have been a few that died by suicide. Growing up the way I did, with trauma and abuse and depression and anxiety and all of the bullshit that I endured, I had a lot …
It’s not his job to keep me sober. It’s not his job to make me happy. And it isn’t his job to make me okay again. There’s a little boy, he’s 6 days old now. And I love him more than anything. Not more than his brothers, but just as much. This little boy has …
It’s been 4 days since baby Atlas was born, and we’ve been adjusting to life with him since. Aside from night 2, which was by far the worst, things with him have been going rather well. He naps for 2 and a half hours at a time, he wakes to eat and get his diaper …
We got home from the hospital yesterday around 4pm. The kids met their new baby brother and opened their “big brother” gifts and had were very excited about the whole thing. After they went to bed, reality sink in and I kind of started to panic and get some really bad anxiety. Looking over at …
After a whirlwind past few days, I can finally say that our son, baby Atlas Isaac, is here. If you’re wondering about the the details of how it all went, here it goes. We got to the hospital at 8pm after calling and them telling us when to arrive. They did not have any beds …
Well, it’s here. Induction day is here. After 39 weeks, a lot of chaos, and a lot of patience…it’s finally time to meet this baby. We are scheduled to get to the hospital at 5pm and the actual induction process should happen I think sometime in the early morning. Since I’m already pretty far progressed …