Not a “real” 6 months…but one day it could be.

Last night, I got a notification on my phone that notified me of a “milestone” I had reached…being 6 months sober. I immediately brushed it off and swiped away the notification, as I have done with others like it in the past, and moved on. But something about it bothered me. Normally, 6 months would …

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Bring it on, Monday.

Another day, another doctor. This one is the “big” one…maternal fetal medicine (my high risk OB), which I’ll have every few weeks until baby boy is here. At this point, we’re carefully monitoring his growth, along with my physical condition, to make sure we don’t need to deliver early. I know at my last appointment …

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Take things slower, make it smaller, break it down.

Well, I made it through the weekend. Even though I didn’t want to. This morning, instead of being in a bad mood about living and all the ways that life is hard and unfair, I decided to take the kids out to breakfast instead. It made my husband happy, it made the kids happy, and …

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Permission to fall apart?

Strong people don’t always want to be strong. Sometimes, we just need permission to fall apart. That’s how I feel. People are always telling my I’m strong, that they “don’t know how I do it”, etc etc. But I don’t always want to be strong. It’s…exhausting. It takes every ounce of effort that I have …

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Ma’am, take a step back please.

Well, I won’t lie, I’m really struggling today. I don’t know if it’s the effects of not having therapy this week, of it just being an incredibly long week, or just life catching up to me in general…. But I feel like complete shit. I think something really triggering happened this morning too, and although …

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