Month: January 2023

Forward is forward…

Last night, therapy went really well. First of all, it was beautiful and rainy and freezing…so, just my kind of weather. (Although my therapist would disagree about the near freezing temperature being perfect.) But aside from that, it was really productive and it felt good. I met my goal for the week of measuring drinks, …

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An unedited truth

Do you ever spend your nights getting blackout drunk while simultaneously googling things like “recovery coaches” or “AA meetings in your area”? No? Just me? Okay, well shit. Maybe that means that I’m making progress. Or maybe it means that I’m regressing. Honestly, who the fuck knows. Here’s a little behind the scenes info for …

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The end?

If you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see, you can find out firsthand what it’s like to be me… I’m not so okay. But I’m hanging on. I’m questioning life and what it means, and if I really even belong here anymore. It’s been a rough day after a rough week. …

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Yay for communication

Therapy last night felt like a win. And I don’t know if you’ll ever appreciate how much that truly means to me. I pretty much live or die by the strength of my relationships. My marriage, my friendships, my relationship with my therapist…when things are stable, I feel good. When they’re not…holy shit do things …

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Sometimes I feel like screaming

Sometimes, I simply just want to scream. That’s how I feel after leaving a stressful therapy session last night. I feel like I fucked it up, I feel like things I said were left untouched, ignored or not explored. I’m feeling frustrated and…simply like a failure. I can tell when my therapist is frustrated with …

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