It was another good night in therapy last night. It was productive, helpful, and maybe with just the slightest bit of emotion. The 2 hours I spend in therapy each week is easily the most important and meaningful part of my week. Especially now, with a new baby and less time to myself than ever …
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Well, here it is. Today is the day that I’ve been dreading for the past 6 weeks. My husband is going back to work, and I will once again be on my own, all day, every day, with all 3 kids. This shouldn’t be a big deal. I’m used to being home with my 2 …
There’s something about this time of year that can be particularly triggering. I have my own traumas and triggers surrounding this time of year, and I don’t know if it’s those things in particular that are triggering me, or if it’s just life in general…but I am having a hard time right now. My brother …
Thanksgiving is historically not my favorite day. I had a hard time with the holidays growing up because my home life was always very chaotic and tumultuous. Thanksgiving in particular I have a certain disdain for. I have a traumatic history with Thanksgiving, and I’ve always had a hard time accepting it and moving past …
Therapy last night was…unexpected. It was exactly what I needed, and very unexpected. But it was so, so meaningful. I’ll give you a guess as to the topic of conversation – yup, alcohol. It started off rather normally, I was an anxious ball of nerves, I rambled about nothing that really mattered, and I tried …
My husband is flawed. Simply because we are all flawed. He is not perfect, he is not infallible, he is not without flaw. But he is, however, loving and kind and caring. He is thoughtful and selfless and, when it matters most, I know I can count on him. It’s no secret that, as a …
Another day has started way too early. Admittedly, last night wasn’t the worst night we’ve ever had with the baby…but even a bad night is hard to handle. When the nights are sleepless day after day, it tends to pile on and build up. Last night the baby had a rough night, as I expected …
My body is throwing up some red flags. At this point, I can either continue to ignore them and face the consequences that will follow, or I can slow down and listen. My anxiety has become more physical than ever, and I feel like I’m going to explode from the inside out. I’m short, I’m …
Well, for the first time in nearly a year, and since the beginning of my pregnancy 10 months ago…it happened. I’m almost out of alcohol. I stopped drinking as soon as I got pregnant, which means that all of the alcohol I had already went unused and untouched, waiting for me to return to it, …
Of the many things that comes with having a new baby, isolation is one of them. It definitely can be lonely and isolating at times. The baby is 4 weeks old now, and the loneliness factor has definitely set in. My husband was supposed to go back to work this week, but we decided to …