I’m starting to not feel very good again. I think I was okay for a second, or maybe not okay, but at least not stuck in the armpits of hell…but lately, I’m feeling really off again. I’m doing the best I can, but my best feels really shitty. I feel angry and anxious and stressed …
So, we’re down to weekly appointments now with my doctor for this pregnancy. If it were up to her, I wouldn’t be pregnant anymore. Medically, she does not want me to stay pregnant, and thinks it’s safer to induce me…now. But, since I’m under the care of Maternal Fetal Medicine as well as my regular …
My days of this temporary “normalcy” are nearing over. A few more days..a few more weeks, and everything is as it was. All I can think about is drinking. All I can think about is the way things were. Things were awful. It wasn’t fun for me, drinking how much I was. Waking up every …
As if last night wasn’t weird enough, going to therapy on a Monday instead of a Tuesday…my husband decided to come at the last minute too. Now, I don’t mind him coming, and had no problem at all with it…but it did go…more difficultly than I expected. We’ve talked about all of the topics that …
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Today is a strange Monday after a strange weekend. It wasn’t a bad weekend, per se, but strange and difficult nonetheless. And not exactly my idea of a fun time as an introvert. On Saturday, we took the kids to the fair, and they mostly loved it. My 3 year old rode some rides, so …
I’m officially 36 weeks pregnant. Everything hurts, everything is swollen, and I want to just lay down and not move for the next few weeks. Sounds about right for where I’m at right now. The weekends are usually reserved for me resting a little, for recovering and trying to get enough energy to deal with …
When my husband and I made the decision to try to get pregnant again, there was a lot that went into it. We talked about genetics, and the possibility of once again passing down my genetic disorder (at the time, we didn’t know it was a 50/50 chance), we talked about age gaps, about money, …
I woke up this morning just consumed with anxiety. Not sure why, or where it’s coming from, but it is there and it is strong. Therapy went well last night, so that’s always a positive thing. We mostly talked about my kids and my son and what the heck to do about school for him …
Remember that brick wall I painted for therapy a few weeks ago? That brick wall of addiction? Well, part 2 of whatever we’re doing with that wall was to fill out and label the bricks. To identify what my brick wall is made of, of all the thoughts and feelings and actions keeping me stuck …
Well, we did it. We survived…mostly. The majority of us are free from the bullshit that Covid was, but we all still have some lingering effects. It’s funny, every single person in my house who got covid (my parents, husband, myself and 2 kids), had a COMPLETELY different experience. No one’s symptoms were the same, …