Yesterday was one of those days that just, all around a good day. The kids didn’t wake me up in the morning. The baby slept through the night. We bought a new camera (I LOVE my Sony a7iii but we wanted something smaller as well), and a new mic. The kids ate their dinner without …
A few years ago, I made the decision to start sharing my life again. I started writing, I started blogging, and I started getting more involved in the online community here on WordPress. I’ve made some genuine, real friends, I’ve gained perspective, and it’s been nothing but good. I have no intention to stop blogging …
Do you know what’s even more exhausting than going to therapy? Going to therapy with your husband. When all your walls are up. All your fuck its are present, and your sarcasm to get through it is at an all time high. My husband has been to therapy with me on several occasions. So this …
I’ve said if before recently, but I’ll say it again. Today is a weird kind of Monday. My husband is just…home. He’s home now. No work, no obligations, nothing. So we’re all just… home. He quit his job last Thursday, putting in his 2 week notice. But he’s the most valuable person at his job, …
The last few days have been kind of a whirlwind, but it hasn’t been all awful. We let the older kids (6 and 4) sleep out for the first time ever last night. My husbands mom has been asking for a while, and I always say no. I didn’t want someone else watching them, I …
Well…shit. I’m not even sure if I have the words tonight. To put it simply….no, I guess I can’t even do that. It isn’t simple. Nothing is simple. If today has proved anything to me, it’s that quite literally, nothing is simple. My husband quit his job today. Everything feels up in the air and …
In 17 days (which happens to be my birthday), I’m flying to Florida to go on vacation. Without kids (which makes me happy), and without my husband (which makes me sad). I’m going to Universal with my older brother and my parents. Just the 4 of us haven’t gone on vacation without my husband since …
As per usual, my whirlwind of a life continues. Have you ever gone to therapy and word vomited for 2 hours straight? That’s what it felt like last night. It felt like I just nervous talked and didn’t stop the entire time. What the hell is that about? I don’t know. I left hating myself, …
The best part about Mondays is that I have therapy (nearly) every Monday night. It truly makes Mondays tolerable. it’s the only thing that makes it tolerable. I had a great 6 hours over the weekend. The baby took a 3 hour nap on Saturday AND Sunday. And my husband took the kids out during …
My strongest desire right now is to run. Run from my life. Run from my problems, run from my fears. Right now, things are just about as bad as they get. On the outside? I’m seemingly very strong. Very put together…very normal. But that’s not how I’m feeling. I’m feeling frantic. I’m feeling overwhelmed. And …