Lately, nights have been rough. I’ve fallen back into some old, bad habits. Two nights ago, I unintentionally picked a fight with my husband, around 11pm, when he was exhausted and all he wanted to do was go to sleep. When I woke up the next morning morning, I was still pretty upset about the …
This morning was a rough one. A really, really rough one. Again. And I’m not going lie, it’s starting to feel like I’m losing the war. I am tired. Literally. Physically, emotionally, mentally…I’m just so done. I can’t keep waking up at 4am. I can’t keep having these same battles, day after day. For a …
I’ve learned a lot about myself over the past….well, I guess my entire life. And if there’s one thing that I know to be true, it’s that when I feel alone with my emotions, I become extremely self destructive. I’m having a tough time right now. I’m going through it, I’m feeling all the fucking …
When you walk into therapy on a MONDAY night, and exclaim that it’s been a looooong week…you just know it’s gonna be a night. And it sure was. I swear, sometimes just Saturday, Sunday and Monday feels like an entire week all in itself. Therapy went well, and we talked about a lot. But I …
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Today was a fucked up day. And sometimes, there’s simply no other way to put it than that. It was not a good weekend…and I anticipated it to be as such. However, I did NOT anticipate it to be the actual absolute shit storm that it was. But sometimes, special needs parenting be like that. …
Well holy shit did this morning not quite get off to the best start. The kids woke up at 4am despite being extremely sleep deprived from their 2am wake up yesterday. Yes, I did say 2am. They are also both currently sick with a cold right now, so now I have 2 sick, sleep deprived …
Even now, in the “best I’ve felt in years”, coming off a high of 2 vacations back to back, I’m struggling. Even now, after a day that wasn’t all bad. A day that had its moments of hope and promise…I’m struggling. Struggling means a lot of different things for me. Sometimes, it means the most …
Any time I wake up, and my day doesn’t IMMEDIATELY start with coffee…it’s not a good thing. The kids woke us up at 5 this morning…which, yes, is better than 4am…but then my husband had (yet another) horrible migraine. So even though I was ready to get up and start my day at 5…he was …
Just like that, we’re back to our regularly scheduled programming. It doesn’t take long to get right back into the swing of things back at home, does it? Yesterday was my first full day back at home in 2 weeks. It was a typical Monday. Wake up. Take the 6 year old to school. Come …
Whew. After an absolute whirlwind of a past few weeks, we DID in fact make it to NY to visit my best friend. We flew there on September 11th, despite the threats of hurricane Lee, and have been fucking BUSY every day since. I got home from my Funding Love trip at like 4:30pm on …