When I went to therapy on Friday it was definitely….productive. Even though it was only an hour (as opposed to 2 hours which they often are), we got a little bit done. A few months ago, we tried doing EMDR to get through some of my trauma and to help with drinking less and all …
Tomorrow is my sons 5th birthday. Although, honestly, he seems so much older. He is so much like me, in both the good and the bad ways. His emotional intelligence is higher than the majority of adults that I know. He is kind and compassionate and empathetic and loving. He is becoming the best brother …
I’d rather die than keep missing him like this. I’m sorry, I know that’s a harsh start to a post…but it’s true. I’d rather die than live without him. He’s literally my child, and I’m navigating this world without him. And that just…..it doesn’t make any sense. It’s only getting harder. He’ll be 8 this …
Anxiety when it makes no sense. But really, if you look at it…it makes perfect sense. Anxiety when you feel useless. Anxiety when you don’t feel good enough. When you feel like no one cares. When all you feel is alone. Anxiety. Panic. Isolation.Fear. Whatever it feels like…whatever you call it…does it really matter? It’s …
The world has so many expectation of all of us. How we should feel, what we should do, who and what we should be grateful for… But don’t let the unrealistic, oftentimes uneducated view of the world tell you otherwise. You’re not wrong. You’re not wrong about any of it. You have the right to …
Lately I’ve been feeling so off. I feel disconnected from myself and my thoughts, and I just feel useless. Despite being a parent and taking care of my kids needs…I feel completely useless as a human being. Like I’m just not offering the world anything beneficial with my presence. Everything is hard right now and …
Lately I’ve had an extremely difficult time finding the time for myself to recharge. Things have been hectic and chaotic and it feels like everyone has needed more and more of me. And I just don’t have anything left to give. As an introvert, who also happens to be a stay at home parent to …
Today began with an emergent trip to the doctor with my 3 year old to get an X-ray of his foot. When you live in the special needs world, you become acutely aware of just how fragile life can be and how everything can change at any moment. (Both of my kids have a progressive, …
I feel like I’m losing my voice. I’m struggling with what to say, what to write, or even what to feel. I feel so broken and useless. I’m pushing people away and shutting down. It’s the worst place to be in. I hate this feeling..the feeling of losing my voice and my identity. The only …
I’m can’t win, therefore I lose. Everything is twisted and dirty and cold. I want to drink it away. Nothing makes sense without the promise of alcohol. I quit. I give up. Universe, you win. The knowledge of the future is clear: but if drink this drink I might forget it. I’ll wake up and …