I’ve been doing a pretty good job keeping the struggles of my reality out of my Disney vacation. I’ve managed to keep the real world distant from the (relative) safety and peace of Disney World. It’s something I’ve needed…a few days to just completely detach from my life. Up until last night, I’d been able …
We have a saying in my house. My boys know it well. “It’s not my job to make you happy.” You might disagree with me, but hear me out. My boys might get upset with me if I tell them no, if I say they can’t watch TV, if I don’t give them a snack …
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Today is day 6 in Disney World. Last night my husband, brother and I went to their new after hours party, the Boo Bash. We stayed in the Magic Kingdom until after midnight and had a great night. As you might know, I have 2 boys, 4 and a half and 2 and a half. …
Oh, my poor brother. He’s sharing a room with my husband and I for the first few days while we are on vacation (normally he lives in another state), and I’m not sure he knew what he was getting himself into. My husband knows this, he’s adapted, but my brother? Not so much. See, I …
Today we started early in Hollywood studios. The day isn’t over yet and we are on our way to dinner at the Wilderness Lodge, but it’s been a busy day. Throughout this whole trip I’ve been really trying to focus on small moments of true happiness, without the guilt, or sadness or anxiety or any …
Day 2: Magic Kindgom Today was our first full day and we spent it at the Magic Kingdom. As you know, this is an “adults only” trip, and my kids are staying back at home with family members. I am the youngest child in my family, and I’ve always acted like it (in a good …
Day 1. We’re here in Disney. My husband, my brother and my parents and I all finally met up and we are together. We are in Disney for the next week and a half, and it feels good. My kids are staying with family members back home. I’ve noticed lately that I really struggle with …
I feel like a broken soul. Too damaged to be fixed. Too lost for hope to find its way back to. Another night alone with too much alcohol. The only presence capable to dull this enormous pain. I want to be done, but I can’t be. I want to cry, but I can’t. If I …
Oh, it has been a week. Between traveling, packing, floods and everything in between…it feels like life is specifically out to get me sometimes. Our kids brand new Physical Therapy clinic flooded over the weekend. We all feel terrible. They worked so hard on it, finally finished it, and it was absolutely beautiful and perfect, …
My heart is heavy. A few days ago, driving home from therapy actually, I leaned that one of the (many) children I know, had died. Someone asked me “what happened?” Nothing happened. It was his time. He was on hospice, he was declining, but it hurts. I’m not his family…but I am within his community. …
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