The (Not So) Sober Diaries

Addict brain

If it’s not one thing it’s another. Alcohol turns to pills turns to….whatever else it turns to. The addict brain doesn’t discriminate in the ways that one may alter it. Escape this…sobering feeling. Escape, escape, escape. Can’t be stuck with myself, not with my thoughts or my feelings or my emotions. Anything to escape. Chasing …

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When the nights force you to feel the pain you desperately try to avoid…

This is currently the story of my life. Everything can be going…as fine as it can be, I guess, but then the same thing happens nearly every night during the rough phases. My husband wants to go to sleep. I usually agree, because I’m exhausted. But then I start procrastinating, avoiding it at all costs. …

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