I had therapy this morning, and even though I had a really rough week, it definitely went well. It’s a good thing my husband and I got in a fight that completely dysregulated me and freaked me out over the weekend. (Kidding, but also sort of not.) Anyway, it started off the same way it …
I’ll be honest, as far as weekends go, this one was a pretty horrible one. Saturday during the day was actually okay. My husband took the 2 older boys out for a little bit during the day, and when he came home, he brought me a special dinner and gelato for me and the kids. …
Tonight has started out like all the other nights in the past where I ended up almost killing myself, or drinking so much that it nearly ended in tragedy. I’m in a fragile place right now. My husband and I have NOT always been on solid ground. Probably 3ish years ago, things were horrible and …
Okay. Here we go. Something happened, and I don’t know how to talk about it. But before we go any further, if you’re here reading this and asking yourself “is she talking about the thing that happened with that person last year?” The answer is no, that is not what I’m talking about here. Honestly, …
There are things I can’t talk about. Topics that hurt too much…things that are too hurtful, too painful…too personal. Topics that, if I were to write a blog post about it, would be titled “ sexual aggression”. There are things I’ve wanted to talk about in therapy that I just…haven’t been able to. Things that …
Nightmares are nothing new to me. For the majority of my life, I’ve suffered from then at varying intensities. They can be anywhere from a mild annoyance to completely life altering and causing me to be unable to sleep. It’s actually a big reason why I started drinking. If I drink enough, I don’t remember …
This is our third day in the hospital dealing with RSV, and I don’t think we’re don’t quite yet. It was a long and noisy night in the hospital, as they usually are, and I’m just ready for all of this to be over. I’m glad we’re here and that Atlas is getting the care …
Day 3 in the hospital. About as fun as it sounds Read More »
Dear weekend, I’m not quite ready for you to leave me just yet. You were too busy, too fast, too chaotic. If I could just have one more day, one more Sunday… I’m just not ready to move on yet. I’m not ready to meet Monday where it is. Sunday, you weren’t good to me …
Thanksgiving is historically not my favorite day. I had a hard time with the holidays growing up because my home life was always very chaotic and tumultuous. Thanksgiving in particular I have a certain disdain for. I have a traumatic history with Thanksgiving, and I’ve always had a hard time accepting it and moving past …
It’s been 4 days since baby Atlas was born, and we’ve been adjusting to life with him since. Aside from night 2, which was by far the worst, things with him have been going rather well. He naps for 2 and a half hours at a time, he wakes to eat and get his diaper …