Things are hard enough when they’re perfect. But they are even harder when they’re not. My husband and I did not have a good morning. Actually, the morning was fine. But then I asked him to help me clean something up, he made a bigger mess with it, I got frustrated, he walked away, and …
Todays theme: Letting go. As we all know, lately I’ve been struggling a bit. I’m exhausted and need to take a break, and the weekends are really the only time I can. But I also struggle with letting go of control, and letting my husband take over what would be my responsibilities. I like it …
Not too long ago, I spent my days drinking and looking up rehabs. How’s that for a great first line to a post? It’s true though. I was at the point where I had gotten myself so physically addicted to alcohol that I thought, and I wasn’t wrong, that I would actually die if I …
Do you ever just wake up, and feel like you’ve just got nothing in you to offer the day? That’s how I feel today. I woke up just completely on empty, nothing in the tank. My legs are more swollen than usual, everything hurts, and I just…I just don’t have it today. But no matter …
So…therapy. Let’s just jump right in, shall we? With my husband coming with me last night, I didn’t know exactly quite what to expect. It went fine, overall, but it stressed me out a bit. We talked about “boring” things that’s I always try to avoid…money, our relationship, the future…all that shit. It went well, …
Tonight, my husband is coming to therapy with me. This isn’t a particularly unusual occurrence, he’s been with me several times before…but for some reason, I’m nervous about this one. While we’ll likely end up talking about just whatever comes up, the topic at hand is “avoidance”. We both, but probably more so me lately, …
I have had a shitty beyond shitty weekend. What started out with the slaughter of 12 of my chickens due to predators on early Saturday morning led to a day of things that I did not want to do, which then led to tension between my husband and I. Which then led to some tension …
Today, I am taking a depression day. And, just what, you may ask, is a depression day? Honestly, I don’t really know. But it consists of not getting out of bed, not socializing with anyone or anything, eating whatever the fuck I want, and just basically, not giving a shit. I am beyond the comprehension …
Wether or not you’re an animal person or not, I hope you can understand my pain and emotions about this. This morning, my husband and I went outside and found that out of my 13 chickens, 12 had been killed. I am absolutely devastated. We had predator proofed as much as anyone. High fences, chicken …
As a stay at home mom, and really…just as a person in general, it can be hard to know what exactly it is that I’m angry or frustrated about all the time. Am I really angry that the 3 year old isn’t listening, or is this about something else? Is it really the dog that’s …