Five.Four.Three.Two.One. The ball drops and fireworks. Resolutions are made.People scream and people kiss and is it possible to change?Is it really truly possible to leave the past behind? Welcome to Midnight. We assign hope to many things. Each year, so many of us assign hope to this evening, to midnight, to welcoming in the New […]
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I heard that you’ve beenSelf-medicating in the quiet of your room,Your sweet, suburban tomb.And if you need a friend,I’ll help you stitch up your wounds. I heard that you’ve beenHaving some trouble finding your place in the world.I know how much that hurts, But if you need a friendThen please just say the word You’ve
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The theme of this week, this year even, it seems…is difficult conversations. Things that have never needed to be said, yet need saying anyway. This has been a week of confrontation, but not in a bad way. Difficult conversations, gentle confrontation, a resist to the natural reaction of me running away… It’s all hard. It
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Oh, alcohol. Tonight, the lies of your allure pulls me deeper. You’re the voice I hear in my head. The one that tells me more is better. That more will help. More will heal, will help us forget. I know you’re full of shit. I know that one more drink, and I’ll wake up feeling
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*****this post is in absolutely, literally in NO way, directed at the one person who I don’t feel this way about. You are the exception, you always have been.****** Amongst other things, December is a time for pregnancy announcements. I think I know of at least 5 this month already. Some on their first…but most
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December 26th. A great day. A day where kids are hopefully busy, occupied with new toys and activities from the day before. That was my day today. It was easy. I’m not sure if I’ve ever called any day in my entire life “easy”. But today was as close as it gets to that. It
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Everyone gets through these next few days in different ways. It’s easier on some than it is on others. Holidays bring out the best and the worst in people, sometimes all at once. Whatever today, tomorrow or next week, means for you, just take it one step at a time. If Christmas and holidays and
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10:09pm (oh, side note, this series of events usually takes place closer to 12am. Tonight was early for sure. That’s why he was so excited about the actual prospect of it.) Me: I want to go to bed. Husband: Great! Let’s put the bed down and get cozy and we’ll go to bed! Me: No…I
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Tonight is shit. It hurts. We’re approaching midnight, and I just don’t feel like lying about it or dismissing it. I hate tonight. I hate this week. All I want to do is quit. I feel so fucking alone. Tonight was all of our last therapies until after January. No more PT or OT or
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Do you ever ask that? Why me, why is this happening, what did I do to deserve this…? All of those questions and more. I know I do. I ask “why”, and the many forms of “why”, all the time. Why do I deserve this, how is that fair, what did I do so wrong…all
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