I don’t know if you’ve noticed or not, to be honest, you probably haven’t…but depression is kicking my fucking ass lately. I’ve tried to mask it, tried to downplay it and ignore it…but it’s just so big right now. Tonight sucks. For what seems like “no reason in particular”…I am having a really hard night. …
I had an entire post that I wrote this morning, ready to publish. But, then, as it always does, life happened. Lately, it feels like things are constantly going wrong. I’m managing one crisis after the next, and I just don’t have the wherewithal to deal with it anymore. I’m tapped out in absolutely every …
Sometimes, the best way to start a post, or writing in general, is simply by starting. I’ve thought about different ways to start writing today, and all that’s done is make me not want to write. So, here I am. Starting. Therapy last night went well. It felt productive and helpful and like we covered …
Something absolutely crazy happened last night…. IT RAINED. It literally has not rained here in…months. So it was an extremely welcomed change. Especially because it brought with it about 10°f cool weather, so we’ll finally be out of the 100s (for a few days anyway). It was not a bad ending to an already long …
The calm before the storm? And starting the week off right. Read More »
Everything can be going fine. Standard. Just a normal night. A regular, quiet night, after a typically long day. But it only takes one thing. One moment for things to change. To go from a decent, even good mood…to a horrible one. Bad things happen. For some of us, more often than others it seems. …
Getting my children to understand the idea that no means no is a bit like trying to teach a jellyfish how to dance. It’s just…it’s not going to happen. No matter how many times I tell them that “no means no, and my answer isn’t going to change no matter how many times you ask”….the …
I work very hard, sometimes I wonder if it’s too hard, at respecting other peoples boundaries in my relationships with them. This is especially true in high stakes relationships, like with my birth sons parents…but is also true to my other relationships. My marriage, my friendships, in therapy…all of them. I am really good at …
Maintaining and respecting boundaries within relationships Read More »
I had therapy last night, despite the odds of school starting and everyone starting to get sick again. Miraculously, my son hasn’t brought anything home yet. Which is actually shocking. It went well and it felt positive and productive, which is something that I desperately needed. Despite my life being…my life, and just genuinely hard …
When the very first thing out of your mouth as soon as your eyes pop open at 6am is “what’s that smell”…you just know that you’re about to have a bad day. A very bad day. Turns out, “that smell” was nail polish. A lot of it. My 2 older kids, who very unfortunately share …
“Have kids”, they said. And a very Monday kind of Monday Read More »
I’m putting it out there. Today is going to be a good day. It’s Saturday, my husband is home, he’s helping out with the kids, I actually got to heat a hot meal this morning…everything feels okay. For this moment, this hour, things feel good. My husband took the kids to the park this morning …