I feel like I’m in a helpless battle right now. A fight that I cannot win. And despite my own best efforts and incredible fight against these demons, I’m not coming out on top. Fear is winning. Insecurity is winning. Addiction is winning. I don’t know exactly what the most defining shift was, but I […]
My world feels like nothing right now. Yet, it feels impossibly heavy all at the same time. And that’s something that has always confused me. How can something be so nothing, and yet so damn everything all at once? How can it mean so much to me, and at the same time…so nothing to the
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For a second night in a row, it approaches midnight when I get the strongest urge to explore my thoughts and write them down. This topic deserves so much more than a late night post. And it will get the attention that it surely does deserve. But for tonight, for now, I’m living in the
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The world is loud right now. It’s screaming and chaos and thunder. Nothing is easy. Nothing makes sense. Foreign is the only familiar thing. And if that sentence makes no damn sense to you, then you’re reading it exactly right. I don’t know how to make sense of my ever changing, loud, chaotic and fucked
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Sometimes, the things we spend so long focusing on tend to do just the opposite. Fall out of focus. Like, you spend just so long prioritizing an issue or a problem, you put so much attention and focus on it…and progress stalls out. You don’t succeed as much as you’d have hoped or thought by
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Over the past few weeks, I’ve been put in a position completely foreign and unknown to me. After 10 years working with the same therapist, a person who I came to develop an insanely strong and therapeutic relationship with, I am finding myself in the position of starting over. And frankly, that every flavor of
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