A snowy(?) Texas Thursday…?

Well here we sit on this lovely-ish Thursday morning in Texas just waiting for the snow to fall. It’s unclear just how much snow vs. ice vs. rain/sleet we’ll actually get…all we know is there is a LOT of precipitation heading for us and the temps are right at 33° right now, and supposed to be dropping.

And as much as the native Long Islander in me is excited and eagerly anticipating any and all winter weather…the state in which I currently reside is very much not prepared or equipped to handle even the slightest bit of wintery weather, ice, or frozen precipitation.

Tonight into tomorrow should be worst (or best) for snow and accumulation, and I’m really really hoping that the temps plummet and we stay below freezing because honestly, snow is magical to me. And since I know how to stay safe (home) in it, it’s not something that scares me. Snow is very much part of how I grew up. And I do miss it a lot.

We are just east of the DFW area, so we’re kind of right on the line for this particular storm in terms of amounts and what we’ll actually see.

I was supposed to have therapy tonight, and that will very likely not happen if road conditions deteriorate and things start freezing/sticking.

My mental health game is…very meh. I didn’t want to drink again last night. I did still drink, but there was definitely more hesitation with it. I waited longer in between drinks, and I didn’t end up having my “normal” amount, which I guess is kind of a win? I don’t know.

I was looking forward to therapy tonight because there’s definitely some stuff going on that has been weighing pretty heavily on me, and I kind of just want to deal with it and address it rather than have the lingering anxiety hanging around. But it is what it is, and it just very likely won’t happen tonight.

I’m doing my best today. A big part of me is really feeling the pull and the darkness of depression trying to take over. Like, a really big part. I’m trying my best to fight against it, but it’s a big fight. And I’m feeling pretty lost in it.

Well, I’m just sitting here on the floor playing with a (very cute) 2 year old while we wait for the snow to come. And…it actually looks like it’s just started. Or sleet, or something wet.

We’ve already lost cell service intermittently and I’m quite positive power isn’t far behind. At least for now we still have internet, so you can all get to enjoy my most riveting post ever 😉 (yayyyyyy bullshit Texas infrastructure and its complete incompetence to handle any kind of winter weather!)

If you need me, I’ll be doing snow dances so my kids and I can experience the magic that snow is, just like I did growing up.