This past week has truly been…unfathomable. It’s been hard. And heartbreaking. And lonely, and brutal, and so on.
I’ve been shut down. Because any alternative has honestly been too much to consider.
I feel broken and…yeah. Just broken.
I had therapy tonight after a truly horrific day. While I don’t yet have the words or the courage to open my heart or my emotions, I can at least say that while therapy tonight was hard, I left feeling better than I did when I went.
And if you know anything about me, you know that’s my measure for a truly successful therapy session.
I’m so disconnected from myself. Honestly, I’m just trying to protect myself from any and all feelings of hurt and grief and angry and…everything else that I’m rightfully feeling.
I’m slowly trying to come back. Feel feelings in a safe way, and allow myself to exist honestly.
For now, for tonight, I’m trying. I feel better than I did 6 hours ago. And that’s at least something.
