Bound to happen eventually…

Well, for the first time since this whole damn pandemic started…it’s finally here in my household. Both my mom and my husband work in healthcare, and I’m honestly shocked we’ve all avoided it for this long. But my mom tested positive on Friday…and honestly, I’m freaking the fuck out. I’m 34 weeks pregnant. That’s like….really …

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Accepting that I cannot control this.

The first(?) step towards breaking down this brick wall that I’ve built around myself is to just admit that I cannot control this. I have no control over my addictions, over alcohol…I just can’t control it. That’s the focus in therapy right now. Just simply coming to terms with the fact that this is not …

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The calm before the storm? But I’m staying in the moment.

I woke up this morning feeling…off. I don’t know why, but I just have this feeling like shits gonna hit the fan. Things feel off in my marriage. Not bad, there’s no problems or fights or really anything that I can put my finger on…but I just feel like there’s something off. Which probably means …

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