Confidence is fleeting. Nothing more than a moment trying to convince you of your successes. Your potential successes. It’s great, it feels amazing…it makes you feel like you actually can do it. Confidence is the ingredient most integral to success. It really is. Until it’s gone. Until you’re triggered, until there’s nothing left. Drink significantly […]
Nightmares are a common theme of my existence around here. A night without nightmares just doesn’t happen. Some periods of time are worse than others, but I can never fully escape their wrath. When I was growing up, I had recurring nightmares with some pretty dark themes. In adulthood, I’ve had periods of time with
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It’s no secret that this week has been a little bit of a tough one. In fact, I’d go so far as to say it was definitely my worst week in quite some time. The past few nights have been a little bit messy, not as relaxed or stress free as I’d have liked, and
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I’m stronger than I give myself credit for. I can do the hardest things that I’ve been so convinced are impossible. I’m better than my demons, I’m stronger than they try to convince me I am. I can, and have overcome every obstacle thrown my way so far. And believe me, they’ve been significant. I’m
I’m almost, sort of, *maybe* there. I *almost* believe it. And I’m trying to convince myself. Because…I think these things might one day be true. Life is better sober. Comedy is funnier sober. Love feels more true sober. Honest feels more honest. Life feels more real. I am not less creative sober. I am not
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Freedom is…well, it’s just that. It’s…the sense of being free. Literally defined as “the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.” I don’t feel like I’m in a state of being free. I don’t feel as if I have the right to act, speak or think as
I have to be real for a second here. Even more so than I have to be, I want to be. A few weeks ago, maybe early-mid June, I realized….my birthday was coming up. And it was one of those birthdays. A milestone birthday, if you will. 30. And it was then. In that moment.
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Me – hey guys, I’m feeling pretty down and vulnerable lately. I’ve taken a lot of hits, and my depression seems to be really big right now. What would really help to make it feel smaller is a lot of love and support. A pat on the head. Maybe a hug. Or possibly some coffee
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Me, every morning waking up after another long night – I’m ready to be sober. I don’t want to keep doing this. It’s killing me. Me, every night at around 7:30pm – Alcohol is all I have. I could never be sober. Why? Why does it have to be so hard? How can I be
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I can’t even describe the shit show that yesterday turned into in ways that would make any kind of sense. Lack of communication was the root of it. Because it always is. Blood, anxiety and panic, and loneliness. That was the result. A lot of it. A lot of all of it. I feel like
