I’m not going to do it.
But I really, really, fucking want to. I need to drink. It’s a need, it really is. It’s more than a want.
I’m triggered, I’m hurting, and I want it to stop. I want the only thing that will make it better. People have a drink on occasion while pregnant all the time. Come on. You know it’s true.
I’m not saying it’s right, and I’m not saying that I am going to.
But you know it’s true. Even doctors are okay with it in extreme moderation or on a special occasion.
I would be doing it for the wrong reasons, which is reason enough not to.
This shit is impossible. It’s fucking impossible.
There are things I just don’t know how to talk about, and the thing that’s currently triggering me is one of them.
As open and as honest as I am on here when I’m writing, sometimes it still feels too vulnerable to talk about the things that destroy me. I just don’t know how to.
I’m hurting, I’m losing, and I want a drink. Just one. Just to feel better.
But it won’t make me feel better, one drink never does. And I would never do that, I would never make those wrong choices.
There’s no point. It won’t help, it will make me feel worse, and make me feel guilty and horrible.
I won’t do it, even though I want to. So, so, fucking badly.
I just don’t know what else there is to do to feel okay anymore.
Your honesty is courageous♥️if you don’t want to feel alone in this hop on one of those zoom meetings I have you – peoples are on them struggling just like you ❤️💜❤️
Thank you ❤️
I know, I need to do more to support myself through this.
Yes!! This is like bringing a
Knife to a gun fight…you need all the angels on earth and above for guidance and grace…please try to just listen to some others that are going through similar things❤️🙏❤️ be well and lean towards your souls strength 🌈
Thank you for being so brutally honest. Triggers are so debilitating. Let me know if there’s anything we can do to support you <3
Thank you, I appreciate it. Even if it’s rough, the best thing I can do is to continue to be honest.
I hope you’ll stay strong enough. I think it’s very courageous to write so openly about the triggers and struggles. Wishing you much strength 🍀
Thank you, I try to be honest and open even when it’s hard. No one benefits from keeping the hard things to themselves 💙
You’re very welcome! I’m the same on my page, I share both struggles as small victories. Though I’m fighting a depression and trying to aim at positive things again. 😊
Thank you for your honesty 🌹 I love seeing posts so vulnerable, they mean so much more to me. 🌈
It’s always good to aim at the positives! Yes, even struggles can bring victories. That’s a good point!!
I hope your struggles will result in some amazing victories! ♥
I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with this. I wish a plane would fall out of the sky and land on his head.
Yeah, I feel that way about a couple of people right now 😞 😢