Yup, almost worst case scenario.

Well, it happened. It got me.

After years of avoiding this, we have Covid. My mom brought it home last week, then my husband and dad got it, and despite all best efforts at masking and sanitizing and cleaning and isolating…it made its way to the more vulnerable of us…me and the kids.

I started getting mild symptoms on Tuesday night after I had been busting my ass all day cleaning closets and toy boxes, and got the most ever so faint positive yesterday morning. My husband dealt with the boys while he was still home, but starting to feel better, and I rested.

By dinner time, my 3 year old was running a fever and refused his dinner. And his dinner was Mickey chicken nuggets!!! I thought for sure he’d take a few bites. That’s his favorite.

But, no. No nuggets, no orange juice. By 8pm, my 5 year old was tossing and turning in his bed, not sound asleep like he usually is. I checked on him and sure enough, he was feeling sick and running a fever too.

By 11pm last night I was pretty much writhing in pain and in tears. The absolutely horrible pain from the body aches is like nothing I’ve ever felt. Actually, it is something like I’ve felt, and every time, it sucks. It feels like post surgical pain…but all over, and not just in one spot.

Let me tell you. I’ve been through labor 3 times now. And not once have I ever been brought to tears. I have an extremely high pain tolerance (courtesy of a neuromuscular disorder and countless surgeries), but holy shit. This pain is unbearable. I can’t, or won’t, take medicine because I’m pregnant, so there’s pretty much nothing I can do but suffer.

My husband had to go back to work today, and I’m left with (nearly) my worst case scenario – taking care of two very sick little boys while being in extreme pain and sick myself.

The only thing that would make this worse is going into labor, but I don’t think I will. At least, not today.

I’m shaking, I’m cold but I’m not cold, and I’m in some of the worst pain of my life. I can only imagine how my boys feel. At least they’re not pregnant and I can give them medicine.

Whatever this is, whatever it turns into…I just need it to be short lived. This is awful, and I need it to stop.

I never imagined that straight up pain would be the worst thing about Covid.

But it is absolutely fucking brutal.