Confidence is fleeting. Nothing more than a moment trying to convince you of your successes. Your potential successes. It’s great, it feels amazing…it makes you feel like you actually can do it. Confidence is the ingredient most integral to success. It really is. Until it’s gone. Until you’re triggered, until there’s nothing left. Drink significantly […]
The past 3 nights, I’ve tried doing things a bit differently than I have been doing like, for more than half of my life. And while it’s been absolutely brutal and painful and basically horrible in most every way, I’m still going to do it. At least for now. You know how I’ve been feeling
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A few weeks ago, I shared the story of Bobby, an abandoned/dumped dog in absolutely horrible shape that found his way to my back door. I’ll link that here in case you missed it and want to catch up. When I wrote that, he’d only been around for just a few days, and his future
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Well, I did it. I got through it. Was it every bit as brutal as I thought it would be? Erm, to be very honest, it was quite a bit worse. At least, the beginning of it was. Let’s back up. Last night I had my last therapy session in the office, the room, I’ve
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Despite my pleads with Sunday to please hang around an extra day….here we are. At the beginning of another Monday. This Monday in particular is one I’ve been dreading for quite some time now. Therapy has gone rather horribly the past few weeks. And while I’m sure there’s more than one contributing factor…the biggest one
Dear Sunday, I’m grateful for you today. An extension of the weekend that sometimes feels melancholy, yet something to look forward to all the same. Sunday vibes hit a bit differently today. I’m still pretty run down from my health crap I’ve been going through these past few weeks, and this weekend seems to have
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Nightmares are a common theme of my existence around here. A night without nightmares just doesn’t happen. Some periods of time are worse than others, but I can never fully escape their wrath. When I was growing up, I had recurring nightmares with some pretty dark themes. In adulthood, I’ve had periods of time with
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Sometimes, things happen in life that feel really, really big. And they are big. But over time, it starts to feel less big. And less of a big deal. I’m sure that will happen with me in this situation as well…but I’m not there yet. Not even close. I really just didn’t have the emotional
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A few days ago, on Friday night, a dog found me. He just showed up outside of my back door looking….absolutely pitiful. Completely starved and malnourished, ear infections, probably skin infections…just…a mess. I have 2 small dogs and 3 small kids, so, we don’t just typically let stray dogs in. But this guy…I don’t know.
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As always, nothing about my life has been typical or uneventful. My doctor appointment on Friday left her feeling nothing short of baffled and confused. With the knowledge that I do not yet have insurance until September 1st, she only ran the most immediately necessary tests. So a bunch of labs and chest X-rays later…apparently
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