Last night, we had some crazy storms come through. Like, hurricane force winds type of thing. So, that was fun. It didn’t end up hitting our area until around 12:30am, so I pretty much stayed up most of the night.
It was a night full of emergency alerts and stress, and I woke up today feeling the effects of it all. No matter how much you do to prepare and try to make sure your outside is secure, when you have animals that live outside like our goats, I’m always going to worry.
We actually didn’t have too much damage this morning which was a big relief. We’re supposed to get some more storms today, but nothing like it was last night (I hope).
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t dragging today. This entire weekend (and the last few months lol) have been nothing but NONSTOP go go go. With my husband working nights and weekends now, I’m literally just home with the kids all day every day. And it’s exhausting.
We go out just about every day to therapy, and that does help to break up the day a little bit. But it’s still a lot.
I woke up today feeling…off. A headache, and some congestion that just doesn’t feel like allergies. How I could possibly be sick when it feels like none of us have left the house in months (besides to go to their therapies) is beyond me….but if I don’t get sick at least once a summer, I guess I wouldn’t be me. Although it usually happens on my birthday …which happens to be exactly in a month from now on July 8th. So, if I have to be sick, I won’t complain about it being now instead of next month.
I’ll be honest though, my mental health is pretty shit. My husband originally said he was going to send me to go see my best friend for a few days over my birthday, but now because of money stuff, he said it’s probably not going to happen. Which…hurts. It’s not like it’s not doable, but he doesn’t want to spend the money on it.
I get it, I’m not worth it. And I doubt she really wanted me there anyway. I don’t know. I’ve just been feeling really low for the past few weeks. And I’m really struggling.
It feels like even though the storm passed over us last night, the storm in my brain rages on. And that really sucks.
I’m exhausted, and more than anything, I need a break. But it seems like that’s the last thing I’m going to get.
It is what it is.
And, as we all know, life goes on.
Even when it’s hard.
