I’m almost, sort of, *maybe* there. I *almost* believe it. And I’m trying to convince myself. Because…I think these things might one day be true. Life is better sober. Comedy is funnier sober. Love feels more true sober. Honest feels more honest. Life feels more real. I am not less creative sober. I am not […]
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One of the reasons I absolutely love blogging is the community that comes with it. I’ve been writing in a blog format for 10 years now, and I’ve had nothing but a positive experience immersing myself in the community that naturally formed. I’ve met a lot of amazing people with stories I’m honored to have
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Last night was certainly atypical for being an otherwise very normal night. I think…just, maybe….I might be serious about this whole, ya know, trying not to drink or whatever thing. For the first time in like, probably ever, it almost felt possible. Like, maybe I actually can at least try. So, here’s what happened. I
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As always, therapy last night sure was something. I wasn’t bad. But it made me think about things. We talked a lot about being more mindful and more intentional, which, in my current state of ADHD actually kicking my ass, has been QUITE challenging lately. We talked about the drinking thing. And how I need
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I feel so…split right now. Like I’m standing at a fork in the road, and I truly don’t know which way to go. So I’m going nowhere. And I’m stuck. Just…standing there. Waiting for the choice to become obvious. And once it’s obvious, like…OBVIOUSLY obvious…only then can I move. I know the path I want.
Man. I remember a few weeks ago…words were just the hardest thing to come by. They just…they weren’t there. My brain, my mind, my thoughts…they weren’t connected. And they certainly weren’t speaking any truths to my hands. But lately, these most recent days, the words are right there. They’re all just right there. I feel
The power of words, lyrics, and seeing myself in success. Read More »
(This post goes somewhere cool, so hang around for the ride if you’re interested in what I’m trying to get at.) In case you didn’t know, and now you can’t say that you didn’t know, Eminem released a new album at midnight (11pm for me) last night. And ohhhhhhh boy. I am *strong* in my
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It really is interesting what’s happening inside of my brain right now. I don’t know why. Or…if it’s long lasting…or if it’s even real vs just being scared shitless about life as a whole….but here we are. On a weird journey that somehow has my striving to actually do better, be better, and feel better.
I have to be real for a second here. Even more so than I have to be, I want to be. A few weeks ago, maybe early-mid June, I realized….my birthday was coming up. And it was one of those birthdays. A milestone birthday, if you will. 30. And it was then. In that moment.
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I hate myself for what I cannot do on my own. And I’m hurt that I’ve voiced, expressed, and even somewhat pleaded my desire to get sober. Or at least get back to my baseline. Because the rate at which I’m drinking far more than my agreed upon “stable and average” is increasing dangerously fast.
