Sometimes, I really hate being a parent. Today is one of those days. I’m angry and frustrated and more exhausted than I can put into words. We transitioned the 6 month old baby from his bassinet in my room to his crib in his room last night. I knew it would be a hard transition…but …
If I had to assign a word to the year 2022, it would probably be chaotic. It’s been a long year. In a lot of ways, 2022 has been good to me. It brought me my baby. It brought me 9 months of sobriety. My marriage got stronger, my friendships got closer, and I think …
I’m probably about as burnt out as one can be. I’m currently running on 4 hours of sleep, and the night before that wasn’t much better. Last night was super rough because now the baby is dealing with reflux, which both of my other kids did, so we were expecting it. But damn, it really …
Everything hurts, and I need it to stop. I need the world to stop spinning so fast, and I need everything to slow down. I can’t keep up with the speed and intensity of the massive demands that come from taking care of everyone else. The world is crushing me, and I feel like I’m …
My son had his 3 year visit with his pediatrician this morning. The appointments that, for typical kids, might last 15 or 20 minutes, takes us an hour to complete. I hate these yearly visits. It’s a brutal reminder of just how….abnormal my life is. When I always seem to convince myself to forget. I …
Today was most of what I hoped it would be. A perfectly overcast, gloomy, quiet day (mostly) to myself. A day I wish I could repeat over and over again. The hours went quickly and the day ended as fast as it began. That isn’t usually how my days go. They are usually filled with …
Happy Saturday, everyone! Oh, it has been a looooong week. My son is still pretty sick, and last nigh was rough for him. He was crying in his bed every few minutes “mommy, I need a tissue again, open the door!” He refuses to let me leave anything different or new in his bed. I …
My son is still struggling with being pretty sick. His genetic disorder causes him to be extremely weak, so he isn’t able to cough effectively enough to clear his own airway, which puts him at a huge risk for aspiration pneumonia. My days have been filled with smacking him on the back and helping him …
Step 1: Realize that you’re actually about to lose it. Step 2: Provide children with food. Full hands and full mouths will improve the situation. Step 3: Walk away. Don’t worry, they’ll follow you. They always do. But remember, their hands and mouths are busy. Step 4: Retreat into your own head, just for a …
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My brain and my body, the physical vs the mental. Always at war, fighting with the other. My body is usually the one telling my brain to slow down, it’s usually the smart one. It reads our signals, our pain, and let’s us know it’s time to pay attention. Something I’m just not good at …