Effective communication drastically reduces the occurrence of being surprised and confused by another persons actions. That’s the situation I found myself in last night. My husband and I drove to therapy together, as we have been since being down to only one car. Both of our therapists are in the same office complex, so he’ll […]
Nothing and everything Read More »
“I’m going to say something shitty to you now, and I apologize for that” *Takes half a second….realizes that it’s not worth it…I don’t need to say something that would hurt him.* Oh boy. Do you ever have those moments…where you know EXACTLY just what to say, just what feels so fucking correct and accurate……but
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Writing isn’t my job. It isn’t a requirement. I don’t get paid, I don’t necessarily get anything out of it (other than organizing my thoughts and hopefully finding support)….and yet, I do it. Freely and willingly. Some days are harder than others. Sometimes I have more to say, and the words flow freely….and sometimes, I
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Sometimes, you just need to take a minute to feel all of your feelings. And that was me last night. Somewhere abound 11:30 last night, I just broke. I felt as alone as I actually am. And I allowed myself to feel it. Instead of texting my best friend, being upset with her because all
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If there’s one thing that’s absolutely true in life, it’s that grief is not one size fits all. How one person feels, or outwardly handles grief may be completely different than you, or not what you’d expect…and that’s fine. It’s one of the those things that’s just so individualized and so personal, and you can’t
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My head isn’t a fun place to be in this morning. It’s dark, it’s scary, it’s fragile… Last night my husband and I had therapy together with both of of therapists. So, it was all 4 of us together. We’ve been talking about doing this for a while, and I’m glad it happened. It was
Getting my head right Read More »
The anxiety is hitting hard tonight. And I don’t know where to put it. Last night was hard. It didn’t end how I wanted it to. The anxiety over my husband going back to work was too much. The stress of accepting (or not accepting) my new “normal” was too much. I drank way too
Nowhere to go to escape the pain and hide from life Read More »
8 years ago, I said yes to my best friend. And he said yes to me. One week ago today, the thought of seeing our 8th anniversary together was threatened, when a deer ran through his drivers side window and severely injured him. This year has been hell for us. We’ve had a lot thrown
Thriving and surviving. 8 years later. Read More »
These past few days, I’ve been struggling a lot with understanding and accepting what “normal” is now. I don’t think we’ve quite reached the place where the period of trauma and healing ends, and the new “normal” begins…but we’re getting closer. And I’m struggling to see what that might look like. My husband’s car is
What is the new normal? Read More »
Yesterday was a day full of positive staff interaction. The day started off with labs, bloodwork for all 5 of us, followed immediately with EKGs for me and the 2 bigger kids. Phoenix and I went into the room at the same time, and the tech did us back to back. Phoenix went first. And
Serving a bigger purpose, and finding the good. Read More »